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The Start Of Revision

Hey guys!

This post is just one big ramble/rant about what my first step for revising for my final exams is going to be. Consider yourself warned!


 

As some of you may or may not know, I’m a student studying in her second year of a degree in Astrophysics.

I thought I’d come on here and write about how I plan to begin my revision for my end of year exams. I think sometimes taking the first step is the most difficult, so I want to make sure I have everything in order for when the time comes. Unfortunately, I won’t have much time to revise because the entirety of second year for me has been riddled with bad mental health spells and tons of coursework .

As an example, between the start of last Tuesday and the end of this Thursday we will have had 1 class test to revise for and 5 coursework deadlines (a class test in Optics along with four weeks of lecture summaries to hand in, a Differential Equations assignment to hand in, 10 hours of CV enhancement to complete along with an updated CV to hand in, a Nuclear Physics assignment along with a Quantum Mechanics assignment along with like 4 pieces of Python code to hand in and an observatory log book along with an observatory report to hand in).

So, as you can see, even within those pieces of coursework there are usually multiple components, so in that space of 9 days I will have completed 10 different components of coursework.

Which is difficult for most courses but let me tell you, Astrophysics is no joke.

Anyway, so I won’t have had any time to revise for the finals until I’ve handed in my last piece of coursework which likely won’t be until the deadline (Thursday).

I think the first step I’m going to take once I’m in my exam revision period is, before anything else, to give myself some self-care. I can hear some of you being all like “NO, DON’T WASTE YOUR TIME ON THAT WHEN YOU HAVE SO LITTLE TIME AS IT IS!”

Well I’m about to change your mind!

You see, with my crappy mental health and insane amounts of coursework, I haven’t even actually left the house since that class test last Tuesday – not even to go to my local supermarket (which is a 2 minute walk from my flat!) I haven’t been taking care of myself at all, and with my partner being in the same situation as me (not the best mental health and extremely busy with work) even the everyday things have really been swept to the side.

I will still be super busy with revision once I’ve finished with the coursework (as in, now I’m completing around 1.5ish percent of my overall grade in coursework per day, and it will be around the same  during the revision period in terms of what the final exams are worth vs the days I have to revise for them). However, I still really think this is the most important first step.

I just need to really quickly take a bath, y’know? I need to do the laundry. I need to tidy up. I need to take bags of clothes to the charity shop. I need to load the dishwasher. I need to leash train my kitten. I need to entertain my kitten. I need to create a revision plan. I need to take that VARK test and work out HOW I’m going to revise. I need to get my weight back down to what’s healthy for me. I need to stock the fridge with healthy food. I need to do a BIT of cleaning.

I don’t want to go nuts, but honestly, it really needs at least a bit of work because it’s like a mad house in here, and I have no idea how I could reasonably begin to revise without taking care of myself, my partner, my flat and my kitten in these ways first. I would just feel far too anxious and wouldn’t be able to leave the flat to go to the library to study anyway because I’d feel gross and wouldn’t want to leave the flat messy or leave my kitten needing attention, ugh.

It’s very stressful and really does need to be done, and I won’t be able to do it before then because I have 2 pieces of coursework to begin and complete within the next 2 days so I can’t really be thinking about revision before the 11th April, and only at that time onwards can I really revise…

So, hopefully you all agree with me now that this is the first thing I need to do once the revision period begins. I know logically it seems like the best thing to do would be to just fit in as much revision as possible considering how little time I have to study for these exams (one of my single semester modules contains 2 subjects (Quantum Mechanics and Nuclear Physics), and I only have 3 days to revise for each of those subjects), and I do see how this would ordinarily be the right thing to do. I just know that realistically, if I were to do that, I’d actually get less work done overall because I’d be super unfocussed.

I guess I could see that preparation as revision in itself? I mean, it isn’t REALLY, but then it sort of is because revision is technically anything that will bring your grade up in the exam right? All of this preparation will definitely ease my mind and make me far more comfortable which I think will definitely cause me to have a better grade in the exams!

I’ll just spend from whenever I give in my final piece of coursework until Friday for this preparation, so less than a day, which is enough time to make a real difference in creating a good, calm, happy and healthy brain environment for me to revise and not so much time that it actually does more bad than good. A good sweet spot.

So I have the first day of revision planned – I don’t really know what I’m going to be doing the day after but I guess that’s what the planning day is for.

Storm

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Growing Up

Growing up… Becoming more mature… These phrases always leave me with a subtle sense of dread lingering in the back of my mind.

I’ve never liked the idea of being sensible, grown up, mature for my age or anything else. I love the idealistic image of me being young, crazy, wild, full of energy and still being the young version of myself at heart.

But, you know what? Being mature doesn’t have to be a bad thing. I think that as long as one doesn’t allow their fun, idealistic self to become too sensible and realistic, as long as one doesn’t allow their young, spirited self to die and fade away, then I think being wise and mature is a brilliant thing. It allows for an easier life – one where individuals are able to provide for their own wants and needs independently and with little-to-no mental anguish.

I wouldn’t want to be less mature than I am, that’s for certain. Any sense of maturity and wisdom I have is something I prize when it comes to sharing my ideas in conversation. It’s a part of me that helps me to be kind and open-minded, to think logically and objectively in tricky or tense situations. With any less maturity than what I already have, I think I’d be a lot less happy.

In fact, I think I’m not quite mature enough. I do despise that word though – mature. It conjures up the image of an unhappy old woman, boxed in by her own thoughts of what’s considered to be sensible, normal, conventional. And THAT’S not somebody I ever intend on being!

But… I wouldn’t mind my partner knowing that, should he feel tired after work, he can rely on me to be happy to cook a healthy, tasty, fast dinner for the both of us.

I wouldn’t mind for Richard to feel at ease with the knowledge that my financial health isn’t dependent on him working at a good job – that I can financially support myself and even him if he were ever to want a break from working.

I wouldn’t mind Richard not having to worry about keeping a close eye on my mental health, not having to help me keep myself physically healthy, and not having to make sure I’m on top of my Uni work.

I wouldn’t mind finding it easy to take out the recycling, to clean and tidy the flat, and to achieve some general chores (like making important phone calls,) all by myself.

I wouldn’t mind not having to feel guilty and stupid after saying something hurtful to someone I love, and for my partner to trust that his emotional wellbeing, happiness, dreams and freedom are 100% safe in my hands.

I wouldn’t mind being less scared of the world, and to be able to just get on with doing things by myself.

I wouldn’t mind my partner feeling that our roles are equal – that neither of us are a burden in any way, shape or form to one another, that we are both strong, healthy, happy and complete individuals.

I wouldn’t mind being able to make my ideas a reality, without having all this doubt and anxiety holding me back.

I have made it my mission to have achieved my desired level of maturity by around a years time!

I never want to be boring. I always want to be a cute, strange, quirky, unique and adventurous person who’s always unapologetically me. I just want to be a more strong, confident, skilled, fearless, dependable and reliable version of that person.

Basically, I want to be a cute princess and a badass superhero.

Becoming more mature, grown up, intelligent and wise does NOT mean you have lose anything positive that your young self possesses. It doesn’t have to mean that at all. It means retaining your youthful spirit whilst honing some of your weaker life skills, until those skills are strong and complete.

If being mature means to be cute, strong, strange, confident, skilled, quirky, fearless, unique, dependable and reliable, then it’s something I want to be.

– Storm

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My Ideal Daily Routine

Hey guys!

I have decided that I’m going to lay out my ideal daily routine in this post, to help me visualise what sort of day I’m aiming for.


00:00 – At midnight, ideally I’d be sleeping! Some people would dread being asleep at this time but my party days are pretty much over. I’m just a lazy old hag now and there’s pretty much no use to me being up at this hour.

01:00 – Okay, so I at the very least should 100% be asleep at 1 A.M. I know that just sounds standard to most of you, but I find myself sleeping later than this time on most days… I know, it’s ridiculous and makes absolutely no sense whatsoever. I feel like a teenager again. Again, literally no use to me doing anything BUT sleeping at this time.

02:00 – DEFINITELY SHOULD BE SLEEPING OMG. Jesus Christ Storm just bloody SLEEP ALREADY!

03:00 – SLEEP WOMAN!

04:00 – Strangely enough to some, this would be my ideal time to rise from my slumber each morning. I know, I know, it’s very early, but I have a fairly logical reason for this decision. Midday is approximately when the Sun is highest in the sky – when the day is at its brightest. Therefore, to make the most of the daylight, I’d be awake for the 8 hours before and the 8 hours after midday if I intend to get 8 hours sleep. I.e. being awake from 04:00 – 20:00 allows you far more hours of daylight than most people achieve. I’m pretty obsessed with sunlight and all that so yeah, this would work really well for me!

During this hour I would ideally drink a bottle of water (600ml), eat my breakfast, have a cup of coffee and check all my updates (messages, texts, new wordpress/instagram posts and comments etc.) I’d also get a bit of TV in so that I don’t start craving it later on in the day…

05:00 – At this hour I’d brush my teeth and go for a jog. My goal is to do 450 minutes of aerobic exercise per week – which is apparently the “sweet spot” in terms of health. To break that up into daily chunks, I’d do around 70 minutes per day – 35 minutes one way and 35 minutes coming back (rounded up to nearest 5 minutes.)

06:00 – At this hour I would get into the shower to exfoliate my face, cleanse my face and to wash my body. I’d then tone my face, moisturise my face, apply primer to my face, moisturise my body and hands, apply my body spray and get dressed into some nice, fresh, awesome clothes. I’d then proceed to tie my hair up and get my foundation, powder, brow crayon, lip balm and lip colour on. It would be SO COOL to actually be THIS ready for my day before 07:00 A.M., EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!

07:00 – So I think this would be the hour for me to…Begin working? I’m not going to lie to you, I don’t really know what to do with myself after I’ve done my makeup :/ I guess yeah, this would be the time I’d begin working. Whether that be little jobs I need to do, commuting to Uni, anything.

08:00 – Again, a good hour for working I think! When I’m back at Uni I’ll probably be in the library studying at this time or doing some homework. When I’m not at Uni I’d be working achieving the activities in my to-do list.

09:00 – More studying / work!

10:00 – More studying / work!

11:00 – More studying / work!

12:00 – Lunch time! Time for me to drink a bottle and a half of water (900ml), eat my lunch and to go outdoors to get some sunlight. I also think this would be a great time to fit some enjoyment into my day – some hobbies. Perhaps I could read, upload photos to Instagram or write blog posts! Midday is my FAVOURITE time of the day, so I don’t want it to be spoilt with work or anything. I just want it to be a midpoint-of-my-day sanctuary.

13:00 – Back to work!

14:00 – More work…

15:00 – More work…

16:00 – More work…

17:00 – HOPEFULLY, if Uni is reasonable this year (which it probably won’t be as I’m studying Astrophysics and guarantee I’ll have to be out at 9pm to do telescope work on some weekdays,) then my uni day should be the usual 09:00-17:00 ordeal, in which case hopefully on MOST days I’ll be DONE WITH UNI BY THIS TIME! That makes this a good time to commute home / entertain myself with some hobbies – again, reading sounds good!

18:00 – This would be the time for me to take a bath to wash my hair, condition my hair and shave. Any extra time during this hour would be used to finish off any extra little bits I have on my to-do list.

19:00 – This would be my boyfriend hour! I live with my partner and after a long day of being busy I know that all we will want to do is hang out with each other.

20:00 – In an ideal world, this would be my bedtime. I know, I know, it’s really early. As in even my bedtime when I was 10 years old wasn’t that early. I know. It only feels early because my day would be skewed so that I’d have more hours in the early morning, so it’s not like I’d have any less time in my day whatsoever. So, this would be the hour for me to drink my final bottle of water (600ml), eat my dinner, brush my teeth, cleanse, tone and moisturise my face, put my hair up, get into some pyjamas and go to bed and sleep. I don’t think it sounds so bad! It sounds rather nice and cosy to me after such a long day!

21:00 – Again, I’d ideally be asleep at this time!

22:00 – Sleeping!

23:00 – Sleeping!


The only problem I have with this routine is that my life isn’t just, well, me. If it was then I’d be 100% cool with following this routine. But it’s not. My life is pretty intertwined with my partner’s, and I HIGHLY DOUBT he’d be willing to wake up at 04:00 everyday, let alone go to sleep at 20:00 every evening! This means that this routine would cut out almost all of the time we have to spend together, leaving only maybe an hour or two for us to hang out. I understand it’s totally fine to have a partner, to live your life separate to them and to still have a healthy and happy relationship. It just personally would make me happy to have more time with him during the day.

I think 5 hours for me with him sounds good – not just doing nothing but hanging out for all those hours, but even just having our morning routine together is time together. If he would get up at 04:00 with me, we could have from 04:00 – 07:00 together for sure, as well as from 18:00 – 20:00 together in the evenings. Ah well. Maybe I could convince him?

Either way, it would be SUCH A GOOD ROUTINE FOR ME! I love midday and the daylight, and by making that time the centre of my day I’m able to make the most of it.

Anyways, that’s all from me for now. Just a rambly Storm post.

What do you think of this routine? What would your ideal daily routine look like?

– Storm