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Growing Up

Growing up… Becoming more mature… These phrases always leave me with a subtle sense of dread lingering in the back of my mind.

I’ve never liked the idea of being sensible, grown up, mature for my age or anything else. I love the idealistic image of me being young, crazy, wild, full of energy and still being the young version of myself at heart.

But, you know what? Being mature doesn’t have to be a bad thing. I think that as long as one doesn’t allow their fun, idealistic self to become too sensible and realistic, as long as one doesn’t allow their young, spirited self to die and fade away, then I think being wise and mature is a brilliant thing. It allows for an easier life – one where individuals are able to provide for their own wants and needs independently and with little-to-no mental anguish.

I wouldn’t want to be less mature than I am, that’s for certain. Any sense of maturity and wisdom I have is something I prize when it comes to sharing my ideas in conversation. It’s a part of me that helps me to be kind and open-minded, to think logically and objectively in tricky or tense situations. With any less maturity than what I already have, I think I’d be a lot less happy.

In fact, I think I’m not quite mature enough. I do despise that word though – mature. It conjures up the image of an unhappy old woman, boxed in by her own thoughts of what’s considered to be sensible, normal, conventional. And THAT’S not somebody I ever intend on being!

But… I wouldn’t mind my partner knowing that, should he feel tired after work, he can rely on me to be happy to cook a healthy, tasty, fast dinner for the both of us.

I wouldn’t mind for Richard to feel at ease with the knowledge that my financial health isn’t dependent on him working at a good job – that I can financially support myself and even him if he were ever to want a break from working.

I wouldn’t mind Richard not having to worry about keeping a close eye on my mental health, not having to help me keep myself physically healthy, and not having to make sure I’m on top of my Uni work.

I wouldn’t mind finding it easy to take out the recycling, to clean and tidy the flat, and to achieve some general chores (like making important phone calls,) all by myself.

I wouldn’t mind not having to feel guilty and stupid after saying something hurtful to someone I love, and for my partner to trust that his emotional wellbeing, happiness, dreams and freedom are 100% safe in my hands.

I wouldn’t mind being less scared of the world, and to be able to just get on with doing things by myself.

I wouldn’t mind my partner feeling that our roles are equal – that neither of us are a burden in any way, shape or form to one another, that we are both strong, healthy, happy and complete individuals.

I wouldn’t mind being able to make my ideas a reality, without having all this doubt and anxiety holding me back.

I have made it my mission to have achieved my desired level of maturity by around a years time!

I never want to be boring. I always want to be a cute, strange, quirky, unique and adventurous person who’s always unapologetically me. I just want to be a more strong, confident, skilled, fearless, dependable and reliable version of that person.

Basically, I want to be a cute princess and a badass superhero.

Becoming more mature, grown up, intelligent and wise does NOT mean you have lose anything positive that your young self possesses. It doesn’t have to mean that at all. It means retaining your youthful spirit whilst honing some of your weaker life skills, until those skills are strong and complete.

If being mature means to be cute, strong, strange, confident, skilled, quirky, fearless, unique, dependable and reliable, then it’s something I want to be.

– Storm

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The Beauty Tag

Hey guyyys! 😀

I hope you’re all having a great weekend! I was technically tagged by Lise over at Lushtivity, although not directly as she tagged anybody who wanted to give this questionnaire a go. She’s awesome. Go check her out.



1. Do you remember your first makeup item?

When I was probably around 6 years old, my mother took me and my two older siblings to a beauty shop and let us all pick one nail polish each – orange and yellow were my favourite colours so I of course chose the sparkly orange nail polish.

2. Describe your perfect mascara. Have you found one that fits your specifications?
My perfect mascara would make my eyelashes look super natural – like my own eyelashes only slightly more enhanced and beautiful. I love a natural look! I’d also want the mascara to be ethical and made from natural ingredients – similar to Lush’s ‘Eyes Right’ mascara (the one that comes in the long tube from Oxford Street.) It would be super easy to apply and wouldn’t get all over my eyelids. As I said, Lush’s ‘Eyes Right’ mascara is the best one I have tried so far, but it is going to take some practice to learn how to apply it without getting product all over my face!

3. What kind of coverage do you prefer from a foundation?
I like a natural medium kinda coverage from my foundation. One where after I use it my skin still looks like my own, but just with less flaws. Again, I prefer makeup that just naturally and beautifully enhances what I already have!

4. Favourite high end brand?
The most expensive makeup I’ve tried is from Lush, so I guess Lush?

5. What cosmetics brands have you always wanted to try but still haven’t?
Honestly, none. I’m only interested in Lush products now haha!

6. Favourite drugstore brand?
I actually really enjoy just using MUA products for when I want some more affordable makeup. I bought a MUA eyeshadow palette recently and have been using one of the powders on my eyebrows every single day since. It works amazingly and was super affordable!

7. Do you wear false lashes?
Nope, never have. I’d like to try them just to see what they look like – just for fun. I’d never be into wearing them frequently though. Don’t like the idea of sticking random bits of plastic to my body too much.

8. Is there any kind of makeup you can’t leave the house without?
I can leave the house without any makeup, so long as I’m not going to be seeing many people at all on that day. I can’t leave to go and have a normal day at Uni without foundation, setting powder and eyebrow powder. I’d also be fairly miserable if I don’t have my lip tint on too. The rest, meh. I usually just do my foundation before I leave and pack the rest of those items in my Uni bag – I do most of my makeup whilst commuting on the train!

9. What is your most cherished beauty product?
Probably my ‘Light Yellow Colour Supplement’ from Lush at the moment. It’s basically a foundation. Really not sure what I would do without it!

10. How often do you shop for makeup? Do you like to pick up an item here and there, or get lots of goodies at once?
I never really shop for makeup apart from when I have run out of something that I use daily. If I do need to stock up on makeup though, I do prefer to make any purchases I need to make in one go.

11. Do you have a “beauty budget” or do you spend freely?
I don’t have a beauty budget but I am extremely frugal. So technically I spend my money on beauty products freely as I don’t really keep a close track of it, but it’s still rare that I’ll buy any beauty products for myself.

12. Do you utilize coupons, reward cards and sales when you shop for cosmetics?
No. I just get what I need when I need it!

13. What type of product do you buy the most of?
I get through toothpaste quite quickly… And also shampoo. I strangely have loads of shower gels though, even though I get through them super slowly. I’m going to go with shampoo.

14. Is there a brand you absolutely can’t stand?
Um, not really. Any brands that test on animals or are absurdly overpriced. I’ve also always had a negative perspective on super popular, hyped up brands like Mac.

15. Do you avoid certain ingredients in cosmetics, like parabens or sulfates?
I’m a vegan so I do make sure any beauty products I use are also vegan. I also like natural products – the more natural the ingredients the better! I’m honestly not that fussy at the minute though – again, I tend to stick to trying out Lush products and for the most part they seem to do more good than harm thus far!

16. Do you have a favourite place to shop for makeup?
Again, Lush… If I can’t afford Lush at the time though, I’ll go take a look in Superdrug!

17. Do you like trying new skin care products or do you keep a certain routine?
I love trying new skin care products. Once I’ve found something that I really love though, I’ll not stray from using it (like my ‘Veganese Conditioner’ and my ‘Eau Roma Water Toner’ from Lush.)

18. Favourite bath and body brand?
I’m so tediously predictable. LUSH!

19. If you could only buy from one brand, which brand would you choose?
LUSH!

20. What brand do you think has the best packaging?
Lush… Only because they use recycled plastic to make their pots and have a really good recycling scheme. I also think their packaging looks quite funky.

21. Which celebrity always has great makeup?
I have no idea. I’m not really a fan of celebrities. I’ll say Rihanna just because she mostly seems to go for a fairly natural look that really enhances her natural beauty, which is what I like my makeup to look like.

22. Do you belong to any online makeup communities?
No.

23. 5 Favourite beauty gurus:
Meh, none. I nominate myself to be a beauty guru. There, now I can vote for myself!

24. Do you like multi-functional products like lip and cheek stains?
If that’s their primary purpose and they have been made specifically to be one just as much as the other, then sure. That sounds pretty neat. But, I tend to find that products advertised as being multi-functional usually have one primary function, and then a secondary, not-so-good function. So I guess I like them if they are ACTUALLY multi-functional!

25. Are you clumsy at putting on makeup?
Yes. I’m terrible at putting on liquid eyeliner – although I’d absolutely love to get good at it. I’m also pretty bad at applying mascara around 75% of the time – there is the odd time that it comes out pretty darn good. I always accidentally smudge my lip tint over my lip line too, and it takes a while to perfect the outline. So, long story short, yes.

26. Do you use makeup base/primer for the eyes?
I use just a regular facial primer all over my face – including around my eyes.

27. How many hair products do you use on a typical day?
On a typical day I use shampoo and conditioner. That’s it. I used to use a hair moisturiser daily too but I used it all up 😦

28. What do you apply first, concealer or foundation?
I just use a foundation!

29. Would you ever consider taking makeup classes?
Probably not. I really enjoy learning my own way around applying makeup, and how to apply it in such a way that works best with my unique skin, facial features, tones etc.

30. What do you love about makeup?
I love that it gives a person confidence in how they look, where they might feel completely unconfident otherwise. I love that it provides every single person in the world the opportunity to look the most conventionally beautiful that they possibly can. I love that makeup enhances an individual’s unique natural beauty, and really makes a person shine from the inside out. I love that it gives everybody the opportunity to look “on fleek” and like all of them beautiful models and celebrities they see. It gives us power to change our physical appearance and how we are perceived by others pretty damn easily. It’s pretty magical stuff.

I tag:
Whoever wants to do this questionnaire!

 


– Storm

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5 Lists About 5 Things

Hey ya’ll!

I saw my lovely blogger friend Lise’s post for this idea, linked here. Please head over to her blog and read her post too!


 

5 Lists About 5 Things:

 

5 Things I Often Say:

  • “Uhhm…” is a thing I say super often because I find it really difficult to articulate my thoughts, so I’ll say “Uhhm…” when I’m trying to think about what to say next!
  • “Hey” is usually how I greet people, so I guess I say it quite a bit 🙂
  • “HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!” is how I greet my partner when he comes home! I’m always very excited to see him!
  • “For f*ck’s sake!” is something I say quite frequently when I get very very annoyed… Which happens quite a lot…
  • “Meow” is something I also say quite a lot when I’m at home – I absolutely love cats and think they’re just insanely adorable so of course I enjoy mimicking them!

 

5 Things I Often Think:

  • “Everything, everything, everything, everything…” is something I think a lot. I’m sure it makes absolutely no sense to any of you reading this, but it’s basically my brain-prompt to make sure I don’t forget anything!
  • “From all angles” is another thought I have a lot. It’s my way of reminding myself to make sure that I’ve approached the subject from all angles and again, that I haven’t forgotten to include anything. It’s something I particularly like to do when it comes to posting on social media sites.
  • “I need to lose weight, I shouldn’t eat that, I should be dieting today to get back to my ideal weight…” is a thought process I have a lot. Everybody says that weight fluctuates – well, mine doesn’t really. My weight just naturally inches it’s way up and up the scales, and it takes some work to maintain a specific weight. This means that every few weeks I’m back to having a few lbs to lose, hence why I have this thought process pretty often.
  • “I need to do something about my damaged hair, I need to do something about my unhealthy skin, I need to study for this exam, need to do this , need to do that, need to do everything…” Yep, I have fairly severe anxiety so I’m basically perpetually worried and stressing out about literally everything that I “need” to do.
  • “I love Richard so much…” He’s my partner and I’m fairly obsessed with him, despite us having been together (and living together) for almost 5 years now!

5 Things I Dream About At Night:

  • My dreams are fairly disturbing but I promise you that I am a normal sane human being. I think it’s from watching the entire “Britain’s Darkest Taboos” series on TV! Something I dream about a lot is about murdering people and then having to deal with the aftermath – hiding/disposing of the body, not getting found out by the police or by anyone for that matter, going into hiding, making sure I don’t leave behind any DNA or any “trail” of any kind etc… I know that sounds proper creepy, but if it helps then the people I end up killing in my dreams are always people who tried hurting/killing other people – usually my family members.
  • Sometimes I dream about having a baby with my partner! I’m insanely excited to one day have a baby and be a mother!
  • I have SO MANY DREAMS where I’m just running away from something. Just running, running, running and hiding… Running down streets, into back alleys, jumping people’s back garden fences, climbing buildings… Like, literally non-stop running away from something. One time I was running away from these monsters that were trying to EAT ME. One caught me and ate me and it was the most terrifying dream I’ve ever had I swear to God.
  • I have a lot of fairly psychedelic dreams. I’ve had dreams of being in a flying yellow submarine, and then everyone’s face started melting after eating lemon sherbet hard boiled sweets. I had another dream where my father turned literally bright green and shrunk to the size of a baby, so we put him into a crib and it turned out that this was all happening because he was really ill and was dying. Then the sky turned dark red and the sun set and everyone had really weirdly long shadows, and everyone had to evacuate that village thing but we had to leave my dad behind because, well, he was a dying green baby in a crib (still with his normal head BTW, just a baby’s body.) It was weird.
  • I’ve had some dreams where I’m living another life. Ones where I’m in the army have been really exciting. Another one I had was where I was the girl from ‘The Wizard of Oz’ and I was trying to sneak into some castle building thing, and there were loads of flying monkeys everywhere.

5 Things I Order Abroad:

  • I’ve ordered a beanie hat and a jumper from abroad once a couple of years ago… I think they were from China.
  • I literally think that’s it. Everything is just cheaper to get delivered from England and you can get most stuff from this country so I don’t really ever feel like I’m missing out on anything!

5 Things I Wish Would Happen Before The End Of The Year:

  • I wish that I’ll get proposed to and engaged before the end of the year!
  • I wish that I’ll achieve some more health goes by the end of the year – I’d be happy if I can even just maintain my ideal weight, drink a good amount of water everyday and fit in a nice amount of exercise daily!
  • I wish that I’d receive a 70% average for my first year of my Astrophysics degree – a 1:1! I should get those results in June, so I definitely wish for this by the end of the year!
  • I wish that me and my partner would move out somewhere more north (we’re thinking High Barnet) by the end of the year. A nice fresh new start!
  • I wish that I would get my first body mod since forever before the end of the year – something super meaningful to me, probably a tattoo!

 

Thanks for reading! Phew, that post turned out to be longer than I had anticipated. I really like to ramble on, don’t I?!

I hope you enjoyed this post. Feel free to leave a comment below if you found any of my points (or “things”) interesting. I’d also love to hear what some of you lot would put in your lists!

– Storm ❤ x

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Beautiful Women!

Hey guys!

I was having a little think yesterday about how my aesthetic has really changed over the years – in terms of the physical appearances of a person, what I personally find to be an attractive look on a woman, and what looks I want to draw inspiration from and impersonate to an extent.

I’ve been trying to work on how I look over the last couple of years, because I want to feel truly happy in my own skin, with what I see in the mirror and with how I am physically presenting myself to the world!

So, I had a little search on Google Images yesterday and found four photos of women who inspire me with their aesthetic! They’re absolutely stunning! ❤


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First we have this absolute beauty! She’s just so gorgeous, and her aesthetic is pretty in-line with the aesthetic that I think suits me. Natural, long, wavy hair, sun-kissed skin, a septum piercing and super natural, feature-enhancing makeup. I’m 100% into the boho, hippie, natural, beachy vibe at the moment. My hair is completely natural and undyed as of 1-2 years ago, and I love it that way! I think you should rock what you have – anyone can replicate a box dye colour, but nobody can exactly replicate your unique mix of DNA that provided you with your hair colour (unless you have an identical twin, in which case your hair is 2 of a kind rather than one of a kind, still pretty rare!) I also love the outdoors, warmth and sunshine, so sun-kissed hair and sun-kissed skin just looks so healthy and gorgeous to me!

I have a septum piercing myself (although I need to get it re-done because it is really wonky…,) and I really think they make anyone’s face who has one look 50x more cute and adorable – especially when they use ring style jewellery.

Finally, the makeup. I personally only wear foundation and face powder, fill in my brows and will sometimes enjoy wearing a lip tint/mauvey nude lipstick/lip balm on my lips, and will also sometimes curl my lashes. Honestly, heavier makeup just doesn’t look nice on me! I think a natural, feature-enhancing look is much more pretty on me, like what this girl has on here. I don’t like hiding my natural face with makeup!

Sorry for writing so much, but this girl’s aesthetic is probably my favourite out of the four!

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Next up is this beauty! Now, I’m a girl with a fringe, who wears glasses and with a septum piercing. Trust me when I say this – having this combination of things on your face is REALLY difficult to pull off! It’s just a whole lot going on. If your fringe is too short, it just looks a bit weird, if your fringe is too long, they touch your glasses and then your entire face looks overwhelmed with STUFF. If your glasses just don’t suit you, you’re going to look less attractive with them on (and it’s quite difficult to get glasses that both look nice with your actual face AND with your bangs…) If your septum piercing jewellery is too chunky, then with the added bangs and glasses, your face is just going to look super overcrowded but if the jewellery is too dainty, it will just be overseen because of everything else going on on your face! BALANCE with these 3 features is really difficult to achieve, trust me!

Now, in my humble opinion, this girl pulls off all 3 seemingly effortlessly. She looks absolutely gorgeous, and has made everything work so well together! I aspire to make my fringe/glasses/septum piercing combo look as good as hers does.

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Sorry for the small picture, it’s all I could find! I believe this girl is a model, because I seem to remember finding out who she was once before… Anyways, again, this girl is such a beaut! JUST LOOK AT THAT HAIR!!! Ugh, what I’d do to have naturally curly hair, or at least wavy… Not to say that hers is natural but, y’know, it looks natural enough 🙂 I love this girl’s hair to death, I want to STEAL IT for myself! It just looks so cute and so much more interesting than straight hair in my opinion. There’s just so much more going on with curly hair! Her hair is also a fairly similar colour to my own, only mine is a bit more of a saturated colour, which makes me envy her hair even more because I can totally imagine what it would have been like if I were born with curlier hair… This girl is just so gorgeous, I’d feel pretty intimidated to be in the same room as someone so pretty :O I WISH I HAD CURLY/WAVY HAIR!

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Last but not least is this lovely lady. Okay, I know, I obsess about hair more than any other physical feature in someone’s appearance. BUT LOOK AT HER HAIR!!! Her hair is just so glorious. It’s beautiful and long, looks so natural and sun-kissed (or at least I can imagine it is naturally sun-kissed rather than balayage highlights added to it,) and has a beautiful, beachy wavy and texture to it. I love this hair so much, it’s like… Goals… Add in some bangs and make it a bit more curly and we have my absolute dream hair!


 

Okay, and we’re done! I think it’s important to appreciate our fellow ladies for their beauty, and it’s totally okay to draw inspiration from other people.

– Storm