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After Day 4 Of Working On Me.

Hey guys!

Here’s your update on how I did yesterday in terms of developing myself…

Yesterday I accomplished 9 things toward trying to make me be myself at my best!

 

 


 

1.) I weighed myself in the morning.

2.) I ate a nice, satisfying, low calorie breakfast.

3.) I drank a full bottle of water.

4.) I uploaded a photo to Instagram! This one is exciting because I have accumulated SO many photos in my life but haven’t really done anything much with them – even on my Instagram I only have 20 photos uploaded! It is a photo of my kitten Kepler 🙂 I think this is definitely a step toward expressing my personal self and little things like this will help me develop into a healthy version of me for sure 🙂

5.) Drank another bottle of water.

6.) Drank ANOTHER bottle of water.

7.) Put a load of laundry in the washing machine and switched it on.

8.) Hung up a SH*T load of laundry! I had 4 shopping bags FULL of laundry needing to be hung up – with another being washed and that finished being washed before I had finished hanging up the laundry… I just really let this pile up due to my mental health, so this was definitely a challenge.

9.) Drank another bottle of water (totalling 2.4 litres). I know this one is boring to you guys but I’m really proud that I haven’t slipped yet with keeping my water intake as 1.8 litres or more each day, since the first day I started working on myself. I used to despise water so even though it’s such a basic thing, I’m proud of myself for trying this hard!


 

That’s all! I have no idea how today is going to go because today my fiancé is home, and when my mental health is bad I always find it much, much more difficult to do anything at all when he is at home. I think maybe it takes more energy to do things when someone else is watching or hearing you doing it? Well, I think that’s definitely the case for me at least!

Regardless, my hopes are that I achieve drinking my 4 bottles of water today, taking my weight today, having a calorie controlled breakfast, having a calorie controlled lunch, have a calorie controlled dinner, take a bath, do a face mask, henna my ends, hang up another load of laundry, pick up my new glasses, starting on and making very good progress on my Differential Equations assignment, buy some protective accessories for my new phone, post another Instagram picture, and quite frankly that sounds like an awful lot for the day!

I know for some people it would be super basic, but man, I’m not well! I wish I could easily do more than that, but just the thought of doing all of those things today is bringing on a headache, genuinely.

Maybe I could also put my pile of clothes away into my drawers, because that’s also been really bothering me.

So, those will be my focuses for today. Wish me luck! I will update you all tomorrow as per usual 🙂

Storm

 

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After Day 2 Of Working On Me

Hey guys!

Yesterday I did 10 things that I feel kept me moving forward in terms of self development.

Again, please don’t judge me guys! I know that for some of you, some of these things are super basic but please understand that for some people, like me, these things are BIG achievements and are steps toward us becoming us at our best.

 

 


 

1.) Again, I weighed myself first thing in the morning. This is a step toward staying disciplined and having some sort of a routine, and is also a step toward caring about my health.

2.) I thoroughly washed our my kitten Kepler’s food bowl and gave him a nice meal, and also gave him lots of dry food and his cat treats. This was a step toward being more compassionate and putting others before myself (this was the second thing I did in my day) which can be really hard to do when you’re so absorbed in your own bad mental health.

3.) I drank one of my 600ml bottles of water! Sticking to this routine is another step toward improving my self-discipline and having any sort of routine is very healthy for us fours.

4.) I had a mahoosive, delicious plate of heated up leftover spaghetti bolognese for breakfast. Now I know that for some of you, you’ll be like, how is that an achievement though? Isn’t that a BAD thing? Again, for people with crap mental health, just HAVING breakfast routinely is an achievement – let alone a nutritious, tasty breakfast that they heated up and ate hot.

5.) I cut my fringe! I’m super excited and happy about this one. All throughout the day I found myself getting very, very angry at constantly having hair in my face, so I thought “ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!” I pulled all my hair back into a nice high ponytail to be sure that I wouldn’t cut any of my long hair that I’m trying to grow, and then I sort of put my hand on my hair and pushed forward toward my face, to get all of that irritating loose hair in my face so I could clearly see what I was dealing with. Once I thoroughly did that, I put any longer hair that I wanted to grow out of the way and behind my ears, and then separated the section which I knew I actually wanted to be part of my fringe. I got myself a good mirror and just started cutting away. I just cut it until it was pretty short honestly, but still sort of long… I can’t explain but you’ll be able to see in the picture. I’m SO happy about this!

6.) I got myself ready to go out and went into Uni. A super big deal for me, this one was really difficult!

7.) At Uni I went to a wearable electronics optional workshop, wear I made a little circuit with 3 LED’s that respond to vibration! My idea was to put the circuit in some sort of chunky bracelet or wristband, and that the LED’s would light up in response to a musician moving their wrist to play an instrument. Although I was really rushed to make the circuit, I’m proud that I made it. It was originally to have 5 LED’s but I just didn’t have the time to solder the last 2 on, and also didn’t have time to actually program the circuit to light up in any sort of sequence so it doesn’t really work as it is, but it does work, if that makes sense?

8.) I drank another bottle of water! Yay for health! Yay for routine! Yay for self-discipline!

9.) I plucked my brows. Another thing I’m really chuffed about. It had been a while since I had last plucked my brows and they are so much prettier now!

10.) I drank another bottle of water! So same as yesterday, I had 3 bottles altogether making 1.8 litres. I’m so glad that I’ve been able to keep up this little routine so far because it is really difficult for me.


 

That’s it for yesterday! I know for some of you it will be hard to see but I have achieved a lot in the past two days. I went from someone that felt disgusting, fed up of life, extremely depressed, having low self-worth and low self-esteem to someone that actually feels pretty, and feels like they deserve to be pretty and look decent enough to go out into the world, and deserve to have their health cared for… I feel much less depressed already although I still have a super long way to go to climb up the levels of self-development that four’s on the Enneagram have.

Tomorrow I will update you all on what I achieved today. I don’t expect much though because it is already 13:11 and I haven’t done anything yet! I will do my best though 🙂

Storm