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My Perfect Face Routine (In Photos)

The Initial ‘Before’ Photo:

 

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Step 1: Getting Rid Of Spots:

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Step 2: Brushing My Teeth:

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Step 3: Flossing My Teeth:

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Step 4: Using Mouthwash:

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Step 5: Exfoliating

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Step 6: Exfoliating lips:

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Step 7: Using A Mattifying Face Mask Where My Skin Is Oily:

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Step 8: Using A Moisturising Face Mask Where My Skin Is Dry:

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Step 9: Cleansing My Skin:

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Step 10: Using A Spot Treatment:

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Step 11: Getting Rid Of New Spots:

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Step 12: Brushing Teeth:

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Step 13: Using Mouthwash:

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Step 14: Cleansing My Skin:

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Step 15: Putting In Contact Lenses

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Step 16: Moisturising My Face:

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Step 17: Priming My Face:

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Step 18: Applying Foundation:

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Step 19: Applying Concealer:

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Step 20: Applying Powder:

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Step 21: Applying Brows:

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Step 22: Curling Lashes:

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Step 23: Applying Mascara:

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Step 24: Applying Lip balm:

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Step 25: Applying Lipstick:

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Step 26: Applying Fixing Spray:

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Comparing Before & After:

 

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Beginning Blogging Again…

Hey guys!

Okay, I’m not going to lie to any of you. I’ve been pretty down in the dumps recently which has caused me to not really feel like blogging anymore. That’s okay! It happens. It’s frustrating because I have SO many ideas, but just don’t have the energy or space in my mind to spend on writing blog posts right now. I think being a student and just navigating your way through adult life does that to all of us at some point – drains our ability to be creative.

Well, I do really want to begin blogging again. Definitely not as a regular thing or anything – I want to keep my blog how it has always been. Just something I write in when I want to write, and about whatever I want to write about! Essentially, this blog is like my own diary or personal notebook or something that I share with anybody who like to read what I have to write. This blog has always been and will always be ME, through and through.

That being said, although I do want to start blogging again, my inability to be creative is making it very difficult for me to come up with anything that I can realistically write and post about given my energy levels, so I did do a little cheeky Google search for “easy blog posts”, and “X Biggest ______ Mistakes People Make” was literally the first idea on the first link that came up.

I’m just being kind to myself! I need to be kind to myself if I’m ever going to find blogging easier than I do right now.

So, 10 seemed like a good number and well, “relationship” is a topic that I feel fairly well versed in given that I’ve been in a rollercoaster style one for 6 and a half years, so let’s do this!

I hope you find the post helpful!

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10 Biggest Relationship Mistakes People Make

Hey guys!

I’ve been in a long term relationship for a while now, so I thought I’d use my small bit of wisdom on the topic to help you all avoid or remedy the 10 biggest relationship mistakes that people make.

I hope it helps some of you out!


  1. They expect their partner, or a potential partner, to be what they are not.I’ve spent a MASSIVE chunk of my sort-of current relationship completely putting my partner up on a pedestal – thinking he was a prince and that I was his princess and that everything would turn out perfectly like a literal Disney movie. Well, that was very wrong. He has his flaws. He has A LOT of flaws in fact, and they aren’t going to ever change or go anywhere. They are a part of who he is, and aspects of him that I “put up with for now” are in reality things that I will have to put up with for as long as I am in a committed relationship with him.

    We have to be careful to avoid black and white thinking too though. He’s also not a terrible person! He is kind and sweet, and it is all too easy to demonise someone when you realise that they aren’t this idealised version of them that you’ve created in your mind.

    This mistake has cost me a whole lot of time, energy and joy. If there are parts of a person that you don’t like right now – whether that’s their hair style, the way they like to spend a lot of time by themselves or the fact that they really hate commitment, you have to realise that these things might genuinely never change, because maybe that person LIKES those things about themselves!

    Nobody is going to change something about themselves if they like or value or don’t have an issue with said thing. Not even for YOU! They are who they are because that is exactly who they want to be at that given time, and you have to respect them enough to truly believe that.

  2. They develop a case of “the grass is greener on the other side” syndrome. 

    When you’ve become so accustomed to the things like the home you live in, having a best friend who you live with, being able to travel because of the fact that they work, the fact that they make and bring you dinner everyday etc, it’s easy to fall into the trap of thinking “Well, maybe somebody else could provide / satisfy ______ that my current partner isn’t”.The truth is though that finding somebody you’re compatible with isn’t very easy. Yes, there are billions of people in the world, but that large number narrows very quickly when you take into consideration the fact that a lot of those people are already taken, a lot of those people won’t be your preferred sex/gender, many of them won’t be within a reasonable distance of your current location, many won’t be within your preferred age range – and that’s BEFORE weeding out the ones who you aren’t physically attracted to, the ones your personality doesn’t mesh well with and the ones who you just don’t enjoy the personality of. And then there’s being compatible in other ways – dietary, religious beliefs, your love languages.

    My point is, the grass often ISN’T greener on the other side. Yes, sometimes it is, but it often isn’t, and I think this pattern of thought is destructive and leads to being only half committed to your relationship because of the idea that there might be someone better for you out there.

  3. Being dishonest with each other and themselves. 

    I am a very very big advocate for 100% honesty in a relationship, and frequently express my feelings and opinions to my partner, and also do a lot of self-reflecting by myself.My partner on the other hand… Although it isn’t his intention, he doesn’t find it very easy to be 100% transparent and honest with himself or with me, which causes massive bouldering problems down the line that may have become almost impossible to resolve anymore because of how entangled the issue is with everything.

    It just is really really bad to not be 100% obvious with your partner. They can’t read minds and only know what you feel or think about something from you telling them that you think or feel that way! Delaying or avoiding communication with your partner just causes a lot of hurt down the road.

  4. Not focussing on yourself & self development enough when in a relationship. 

    I am SO guilty of this! I’ve spent the majority of my relationship so obsessed about the relationship itself and about things that my partner weren’t doing or were doing that were upsetting me, that I just sort of neglected to actually save enough energy to grow as a person much myself.That’s not to say I haven’t grown much in terms of my views or anything like that – I purely mean things like gaining new skills, making new friends, visiting family frequently, joining clubs, volunteering, getting jobs, learning to cook new recipes, learning new instruments etc…

    Fretting and obsessing over a relationship is extremely isolating, and you will GREATLY regret getting so wrapped up in it all. That’s not to say that enjoying the fact that you’re in a relationship, are in love etc is an issue. Enjoy it! Just make sure you keep the amount of time you’re thinking about your relationship to not the entire day – not even half the day! Try to limit your relationship stuff to maybe a MAXIMUM of 4 hours of your day, so you get AT LEAST a whole 75% to yourself, your friends or whatever else you want or have or should have in your life that ISN’T relationship related! Honestly, closer to 3 hours is probably better.

    What I mean by this is 3 hours of your THINKING TIME! You have 16 hours a day not just to DO things, but you also spend that time thinking – and it is that thinking that can become very very draining and obsessive.

    Another way this can become an issue is if you’re spending all of those 3 hours thinking about said person, without actually being present with them. That’s also very unhealthy and leads to a very warped and unreal view of the relationship because the majority of it is just fantasised and thought about in your head! Keep the thinking whilst NOT present with your partner to an hour or so a day. This is very difficult to control but it’s important enough to really give it a good try!

  5. Allowing your relationship to “peak” too early. 

    I think one of the biggest secrets to a successful, happy relationship is keeping a steady pace. Yes, you want it to be exciting at the start, but that doesn’t mean you want to be spending every moment together only to feel a bit down when 5 years later you realise your partner hardly ever chooses to spend their time with you at all!I think it’s best to be on an incline. You should always be growing together and have new, exciting ideas on the horizon. You shouldn’t be making really good andย exciting steps forward (like spending a good amount of time together), only to then take those same, progressive steps back later down the line.
    Don’t get lazy! Your relationship should be worth MORE down the line, and therefore be worthy of MORE achievements together and MORE enjoyment when time is spent together, as opposed to less.

  6. Not learning about love languages. 

    It’s easy to feel hurt when your partner isn’t really showing they care about you in the same way that you show them that you care about them, but it shouldn’t be too hurtful. Maybe it comes less naturally for them to show you love in that way. Maybe they are showing you love in other ways that you find less meaningful, but that hold the most meaning to them.Partners should learn about each other’s love language and how they work right near the beginning of their relationship together to avoid hurt feelings down the line! It’s also easier to adapt your behaviours at the start of a relationship than it is to unlearn / learn new patterns of how you show love when you’ve been having the same patterns for years!

  7. They say they’ll do something, and then they don’t. 

    This could be something small, like “I’ll send that letter after work!”, or something big, like “I’ll be happy for us to get married in a year’s time!”The only thing that happens when you don’t follow through with what you say is that you end up damaging the trust your partner has in you. It may only seem like a small thing at the time, but little by little, you’re creating cracks in the foundation of your relationship.

    If you say you’ll do something, that you believe something, feel something, think something – make sure you really mean and follow through with those things. Don’t endlessly disappoint and hurt your partner. If you’re not 100% sure that you really do think or feel a certain way or that you will do said task, don’t voice those things at all! It’s far kinder to not say the things that you think your partner wants to hear, when you don’t really mean them, than it is to just not say anything at all. It will also keep their trust for you growing throughout the relationship, rather than declining!

    Also, being untrustworthy is quite frankly annoying for your partner and wastes their time. Be respectful toward them!

  8. They get into a relationship without working on mental health problems. 

    This is a difficult one, and I’m sure isn’t the most popular of opinions. This comes from my own experience. Neither me nor my partner are very mentally healthy, and would definitely have benefitted from working on our own mental health before getting into a relationship with each other.Having mental health issues warps your entire perspective of everything that’s going on in a relationship. Now, I know that a lot of mental health conditions can’t be fully “cured” or might take a very long time to improve, and I’m not saying that mentally ill people don’t deserve to be in a loving relationship.

    What I am saying is that if working on your mental health / them working on their mental health / both of you working on your mental health is something that you realistically could do before getting into a relationship, it’s something you probably should do. Because, once you’re in a relationship, it’s MUCH harder to find that sort of quality time to invest in improving your mental health.

  9. When they don’t appreciate how special their partner is.This is similar to some of the past mistakes in this list, although it isn’t quite the same as getting “the grass is greener on the other side” syndrome, and isn’t quite the same as getting lazy in the relationship. This mistake is directly related to what you see in your partner.

    Let’s put this another way. If you currently have a partner, and truly imagine them really enjoying being happy and in love in a relationship with somebody else, how does that make you feel?

    When you imagine those sorts of situations, the things you adore about your partner and find special about them and the things that make you feel so proud that they’re your partner, suddenly become much clearer. The same thing should happen when your partner imagines the scenario where you are in a very happy, loving, successful relationship with somebody else that adores everything about you.

    It’s important to realise that you chose your partner for a reason and you have stuck with them for a reason. They are special, unique, beautiful on the outside and inside, understand you, took care of you when nobody else did.

    Again, that’s not to say that this is the case for everyone, but in a lot of cases, I think people lose sight of the sparkling diamond that their partner is, and take advantage of how precious they are.

  10. When both members of the relationship give up the fight, and stop trying. 

    It can be very difficult to pick a relationship up when it feels really battered and damaged, when you’ve lost hope and faith and trust, when you no longer feel that child-like excitement about what comes next, when you’ve settled into the rut of just maintaining the status-quo.It is hard, and quite frankly, when you’re feeling so down about your relationship, it can feel pointless to get up and try again. Sometimes it just feels like a one-sided, losing battle.

    And you know what? It shouldn’t be that hard. Nobody is wrong in thinking “Perhaps it’s time to give up and call it a day” when a relationship gets to this point. You’re all right in thinking that it should be simpler than this.

    But the fact is, it doesn’t always go according to plan.

    Just because maintaining a health relationship would be simple in an ideal world, that doesn’t change the fact that in reality, keeping your current relationship healthy and happy at this moment in time is difficult.

    That doesn’t necessarily mean that your relationship is wrong. Maybe you were young when you got together – not really knowing what you’re doing can lead to the foundations of your relationship to have been laid poorly, causing ruts like this down the line.

    Or, maybe you and your partner are just quite different to each other, and think quite differently to each other. If you still think each other are special and if you still have a tiny spark of hope left, then this isn’t a reason to give up. Sure, you’ll have to work harder than other couples who just seem to “fit” perfectly together, but not meshing perfectly with your partner doesn’t mean that they aren’t the perfect partner for you.

    If you stop trying, the rut you’re in will only get deeper, darker, more oppressive. You have to bring some life and joy into your relationship. You HAVE to give your relationship the time it deserves. You need to spend time really thinking about how you can build this back up again, and you need to spend the time and energy to actually follow through with your ideas. Don’t give up!


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After Day 6 Of Working On Me.

Hey guys!

Yesterday I managed to achieve 10 things toward developing myself into a healthy version of me!

 

 


 

1.) I took my weight! This has literally just become routing by this point ๐Ÿ™‚

2.) Made myself a proper, good breakfast consisting of cereal, a coffee and a bottle of water.

3.) I drank a bottle of water! Again, standard routine by this point!

4.) I put a load of laundry on in the washing machine.

5.) I hung up lots of wet laundry to dry.

6.) THIS is the exciting one of the day guys. I always seem to have one thing that I’m pretty chuffed about and excited about. So basically, I had been watching the Kon Mari method on Netflix and so I decided to try it myself. I washed all of me and my partner’s clothes and piled them all into separate piles on the bed, and proceeded to alternate picking one item to go into the keep pile, one to go into the discard pile (depending on whether the item truly sparked joy or not). Our aim was a 50% reduction in our clothes, so this method worked really nicely! At the end, we allowed our imperfect selves to grab anything we REALLY wanted from the discard pile, so I think we probably got rid of around 40% of our clothes at the end. After doing this, me and my fiancรฉ ended up putting away SOME of my clothes using the Kon Mari way (so that we could fit as many clothes into our storage areas as possible etc), but I basically ended up with a massive pile of clothes on top of my dressing table ever since that Kon Mari session that never ended up being put away. Finally, yesterday me and my partner put ALL MY CLOTHES AWAY IN THE KON MARI FASHION! I mean, I’m so happy I could legit cry about this achievement. I sat there for probably 4 hours straight folding and putting away my clothes. The photo is just a sample which is the drawer with all my tops inside and a few jumpers.

7.) I drank another bottle of water.

8.) I uploaded another picture onto Instagram. This time it was just a screen shot of my phone’s background, because I think one’s phone background really showcases a lot about an individual! It also allowed me to give a moment to express my appreciation about my fiancรฉ buying me the phone ๐Ÿ™‚

9.) I drank another bottle of water.

10.) I drank my final bottle of water (adding up to 2.4 litres in total for the day).


 

Thank you so much for reading!

Today I hope that I will do some studying, henna my ends, take a bath, upload another picture on Instagram, clean my mirrors and windows and any hard surfaces and that’s about it.

For Instagram, I think I might start aiming to upload photos of myself actually DOING things, rather than just selfies or photos that don’t have me in them at all… I think photos of people actually doing things kinda shows a little window into that person’s life and are really personally expressive!

I will update you all tomorrow to show you what I got up to doing today ๐Ÿ™‚

Storm

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After Day 5 Of Working On Me

Hey guys!

Yesterday I achieved just 7 things toward developing myself as a type 4 on the Enneagram.

Here are the things I achieved:

 

 


 

1.) I weighed myself.

2.) I drank a bottle of water.

3.) I picked up my new glasses! So excited about this one. My new glasses are absolutely perfect for me – they are the perfect shape on my face and make my face look lifted and cute and interesting (a cat eye sort of shape), and they are a gorgeous warm green colour (which brings out the colour of my eyes beautifully. They also have an anti-glare coating on them to help me see a bit better when light reflects off of things in the room. I also managed to get them for under ยฃ50 (which is the price of the cheapest glasses that Boots Opticians do) which I was happy about because I changed from Boots to Specsavers to save myself some money. They’re a really beautiful subtle frame and don’t overwhelm my soft facial features and tones at all. They just absolutely couldn’t be more perfect, and I’m so happy with them!

4.) I drank a bottle of water.

5.) I drank another bottle of water…

6.) I used a Lush face mask! First I washed my hands super thoroughly, and I then scrubbed my face using a pair of exfoliating gloves and the Bouncy Bunny Shower Jelly from Lush for 90 seconds. I rinsed my face thoroughly and then applied the Rosy Cheeks Fresh Face Mask from Lush thickly enough for there to be SOME opaque areas (particularly on problem areas like my nose). I left the mask on for 12 minutes and 30 seconds, and then rinsed it off thoroughly. This mask was really brightening and helps to clean the face and soften out any discolouration, but was also very drying.ย  Anyway, I really enjoyed pampering myself and using some of my Lush!

7.) I drank another final bottle of water.


 

Yesterday wasn’t as productive as I had hoped it to be because, well, I think picking up my glasses took a lot of energy and time out of my day honestly. Today should be a bit different I hope ๐Ÿ™‚ We will see.

Thanks,

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After Day 4 Of Working On Me.

Hey guys!

Here’s your update on how I did yesterday in terms of developing myself…

Yesterday I accomplished 9 things toward trying to make me be myself at my best!

 

 


 

1.) I weighed myself in the morning.

2.) I ate a nice, satisfying, low calorie breakfast.

3.) I drank a full bottle of water.

4.) I uploaded a photo to Instagram! This one is exciting because I have accumulated SO many photos in my life but haven’t really done anything much with them – even on my Instagram I only have 20 photos uploaded! It is a photo of my kitten Kepler ๐Ÿ™‚ I think this is definitely a step toward expressing my personal self and little things like this will help me develop into a healthy version of me for sure ๐Ÿ™‚

5.) Drank another bottle of water.

6.) Drank ANOTHER bottle of water.

7.) Put a load of laundry in the washing machine and switched it on.

8.) Hung up a SH*T load of laundry! I had 4 shopping bags FULL of laundry needing to be hung up – with another being washed and that finished being washed before I had finished hanging up the laundry… I just really let this pile up due to my mental health, so this was definitely a challenge.

9.) Drank another bottle of water (totalling 2.4 litres). I know this one is boring to you guys but I’m really proud that I haven’t slipped yet with keeping my water intake as 1.8 litres or more each day, since the first day I started working on myself. I used to despise water so even though it’s such a basic thing, I’m proud of myself for trying this hard!


 

That’s all! I have no idea how today is going to go because today my fiancรฉ is home, and when my mental health is bad I always find it much, much more difficult to do anything at all when he is at home. I think maybe it takes more energy to do things when someone else is watching or hearing you doing it? Well, I think that’s definitely the case for me at least!

Regardless, my hopes are that I achieve drinking my 4 bottles of water today, taking my weight today, having a calorie controlled breakfast, having a calorie controlled lunch, have a calorie controlled dinner, take a bath, do a face mask, henna my ends, hang up another load of laundry, pick up my new glasses, starting on and making very good progress on my Differential Equations assignment, buy some protective accessories for my new phone, post another Instagram picture, and quite frankly that sounds like an awful lot for the day!

I know for some people it would be super basic, but man, I’m not well! I wish I could easily do more than that, but just the thought of doing all of those things today is bringing on a headache, genuinely.

Maybe I could also put my pile of clothes away into my drawers, because that’s also been really bothering me.

So, those will be my focuses for today. Wish me luck! I will update you all tomorrow as per usual ๐Ÿ™‚

Storm

 

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After Day 3 Of Working On Me

Hey guys!

Here’s my daily update of how working on me went yesterday…

Yesterday I only achieved a measly 6 things toward me developing myself – and 4 of them were just drinking water! Super boring, so I’ll just go over what I did quickly so I can keep my momentum up for today:


1.) I weighed myself in the morning! This daily habit I feel has kept me really motivated and has kept me feeling a bit more put-together. It’s the little things that help!

2.) I drank a full 600ml bottle of water. Again, this is one habit that I’ve kept all of these days and it’s something I’m actually pretty proud of. Some people find it hard to drink water, but not me!

3.) I put on a load of laundry in the washing machine. This has always been “my” job, and is something I’ve fallen really behind on recently because of my poor brain being unwell. It hasn’t had a massive impact on me really because I mostly stay at home in pyjamas anyway, but my partner has really been needing some clothes! Doing this really helped me feel useful.

4.) Drank another bottle of water (600ml).

5.) Drank another bottle of water (600ml).

6.) Drank another bottle of water (600ml).


 

Super boring yesterday – sorry! I’m trying my best though which is what matters, so if my best was to just drink a bunch of water then so be it! That’s a bunch of water more than someone not trying would have had!

Hopefully today I’ll to better – I was out of bed today 4 hours earlier than I was yesterday, and also started writing this blog post around 4 hours earlier.

Here’s to hoping that the day brings lots of enjoyment, excitement, productivity, fun, happiness and health.

Storm

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After Day 2 Of Working On Me

Hey guys!

Yesterday I did 10 things that I feel kept me moving forward in terms of self development.

Again, please don’t judge me guys! I know that for some of you, some of these things are super basic but please understand that for some people, like me, these things are BIG achievements and are steps toward us becoming us at our best.

 

 


 

1.) Again, I weighed myself first thing in the morning. This is a step toward staying disciplined and having some sort of a routine, and is also a step toward caring about my health.

2.) I thoroughly washed our my kitten Kepler’s food bowl and gave him a nice meal, and also gave him lots of dry food and his cat treats. This was a step toward being more compassionate and putting others before myself (this was the second thing I did in my day) which can be really hard to do when you’re so absorbed in your own bad mental health.

3.) I drank one of my 600ml bottles of water! Sticking to this routine is another step toward improving my self-discipline and having any sort of routine is very healthy for us fours.

4.) I had a mahoosive, delicious plate of heated up leftover spaghetti bolognese for breakfast. Now I know that for some of you, you’ll be like, how is that an achievement though? Isn’t that a BAD thing? Again, for people with crap mental health, just HAVING breakfast routinely is an achievement – let alone a nutritious, tasty breakfast that they heated up and ate hot.

5.) I cut my fringe! I’m super excited and happy about this one. All throughout the day I found myself getting very, very angry at constantly having hair in my face, so I thought “ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!” I pulled all my hair back into a nice high ponytail to be sure that I wouldn’t cut any of my long hair that I’m trying to grow, and then I sort of put my hand on my hair and pushed forward toward my face, to get all of that irritating loose hair in my face so I could clearly see what I was dealing with. Once I thoroughly did that, I put any longer hair that I wanted to grow out of the way and behind my ears, and then separated the section which I knew I actually wanted to be part of my fringe. I got myself a good mirror and just started cutting away. I just cut it until it was pretty short honestly, but still sort of long… I can’t explain but you’ll be able to see in the picture. I’m SO happy about this!

6.) I got myself ready to go out and went into Uni. A super big deal for me, this one was really difficult!

7.) At Uni I went to a wearable electronics optional workshop, wear I made a little circuit with 3 LED’s that respond to vibration! My idea was to put the circuit in some sort of chunky bracelet or wristband, and that the LED’s would light up in response to a musician moving their wrist to play an instrument. Although I was really rushed to make the circuit, I’m proud that I made it. It was originally to have 5 LED’s but I just didn’t have the time to solder the last 2 on, and also didn’t have time to actually program the circuit to light up in any sort of sequence so it doesn’t really work as it is, but it does work, if that makes sense?

8.) I drank another bottle of water! Yay for health! Yay for routine! Yay for self-discipline!

9.) I plucked my brows. Another thing I’m really chuffed about. It had been a while since I had last plucked my brows and they are so much prettier now!

10.) I drank another bottle of water! So same as yesterday, I had 3 bottles altogether making 1.8 litres. I’m so glad that I’ve been able to keep up this little routine so far because it is really difficult for me.


 

That’s it for yesterday! I know for some of you it will be hard to see but I have achieved a lot in the past two days. I went from someone that felt disgusting, fed up of life, extremely depressed, having low self-worth and low self-esteem to someone that actually feels pretty, and feels like they deserve to be pretty and look decent enough to go out into the world, and deserve to have their health cared for… I feel much less depressed already although I still have a super long way to go to climb up the levels of self-development that four’s on the Enneagram have.

Tomorrow I will update you all on what I achieved today. I don’t expect much though because it is already 13:11 and I haven’t done anything yet! I will do my best though ๐Ÿ™‚

Storm

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After Day 1 Of Working On Me

Hey guys!

Just a super quick morning update on how day 1 of focussing on working on me went!

The progress I made may seem really small, but to me the things I did were HUGE so please respect that what’s easy, unimportant and insignificant to some may be difficult, super important and very significant to others.

 


  1. I took my weight in the morning. This was my first step yesterday in getting back into a healthy routine and in being disciplined, which is super important to the health of type 4’s on the Enneagram. It was also the first step in focussing again on my health and wellbeing.
  2. Washing my hands with a beautiful Lush soap (Golden Pear) instead of a cheap hand soap. I have a strange difficulty with using Lush products because of my mental health, so ALLOWING myself to use such a beautiful Lush product for an action we do maybe 10 times a day means a lot in terms of my personal growth and in starting to love myself more.
  3. I drank a bottle of water before breakfast. Again, practising routine, discipline, self-care and focussing on my health.
  4. I had a hot, cooked, proper, fairly balanced, low calorie breakfast. My breakfast was 2 pieces of vegan bacon rashers, cooked with just a hot frying pan and dripping in a few drops of water every now and then, and a third of a tin of baked beans. This step was pretty huge for me as I’ve become somewhat un-functional due to my mental health recently, so to again shift my focus and attention toward self-care, my health and my happiness was huge.
  5. I made myself a tasty, calorie controlled coffee. Again, shifting my focus toward self-care.
  6. I made myself a lovely, hot, big bath using Lush’s Puddy Holly Bubbleroon. I got this bath product as a gift on Christmas day from my fiance, and simply haven’t allowed myself to dedicate the energy, time or enjoyment toward taking a bath using this product since then. Another action toward developing my self-love and self-care.
  7. I took the bath and did loads of little pampering things while I did! I washed my hair with the Godiva shampoo bar from Lush, conditioned my hair with TRESemme’s Remoisturising Conditioner, detangled my hair with my fingers and put my hair up in a shower cap with the conditioner still in, exfoliated my face using the Bath Essentials Exfoliating Gloves from Tesco and added a bit of Prince Charming Shower Cream onto the gloves so I could clean my face at the same time, I exfoliated my body with Lush’s The Rough With The Smooth Shower Scrub, shaved, brushed my teeth, washed my body with the Prince Charming Shower Cream from Lush using a shower pouf, moisturised my body with Lush’s Christingle Body Conditioner and rinsed everything off. Phew! For me, all of that was a MASSIVE ACHIEVEMENT. I felt so, so clean and fresh and amazing afterwards. This was a massive step toward developing my self-love and self-care, and in feeling more confident about myself. It definitely instantly raised my self esteem.
  8. I drank another bottle of water! Yay for paying attention to your health, having discipline and following routine ๐Ÿ™‚
  9. I had a nice, hot, sort-of balanced, calorie limited lunch. I made myself some sort of tasty vegan burger from Sainsbury’s (the Sweet Potato, Quinoa & Lentil Burger) with a couple of sun dried tomatoes in olive oil on the side. SO tasty. Another step toward self-care and paying attention to my health.
  10. I used some nail clippers to clip down all of my nails. My nails have been needing clipping for a really long time so this one was super satisfying. I hate having long nails because they always tear and I just find them really dirty and uncomfortable and gross. I like them JUST below the finger itself.
  11. I made myself another tasty, calorie limited coffee.
  12. I cleaned off all the old nail polish and any residue using some nail polish remover.
  13. I PAINTED MY NAILS! This step has made me so happy you guys have no idea. I took my time and painted them really, really nicely and I absolutely love them so, so much. I used the OPI ‘It’s A Piazza Cake’ nail lacquer. It’s basically an orange, reddy, dark, Autumnal, warm colour. I think it might be my favourite colour in the world. It is cosy, vibrant, beautiful, sexy, interesting, and I think it’s a colour that I associate with all seasons (the pumpkins, spices , lights and leaves of Autumn, the spices, food and gingerbread of Winter, the life and flowers of spring and the sunsets, tropical fruits, holidays and warmth of Summer). It’s a beautiful colour. This was a really forward moving step in my self-development.
  14. I drank ANOTHER bottle of water! These bottles are 600ml BTW, so this meant a total of 1.8 litres for yesterday. I know, not the MOST ideal, but I really stayed disciplined, focussed on my health and stuck to routine much better than I previously would have.

 

That’s all guys! I will be trying to work on myself today also, and will keep track of the steps I take toward me being the best version of myself and hopefully will update you all again tomorrow. I definitely feel that honestly, in just one day, I blossomed as a four so much ๐Ÿ™‚

Storm

 

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Blossoming As A Type 4.

Hey guys!

So, I recently discovered that using Enneagram typology, I am a 4w5. I’ve already learnt a lot about this type and after learning about the different levels of healthiness of my Enneagram type, I decided to write a blog post on blossoming as a type 4 as soon as I could.

I believe I’m at level 7 on the four’s levels of development scale.

I think if I were on any level below a 7, I would basically feel much worse than I do now (although I do resonate a lot with level 8 too). In fact, I definitely feel everything written that a level 8 feels, apart from I don’t feel that I am closed off to receiving help – which I think is the biggest distinction between a level 7 and a level 8 in my opinion. In fact, I absolutely love being helped and actively ask for help often, and although sometimes it is difficult to receive it, I’m always happy and grateful once I have. Definitely not a level 9 at the moment though – I think that level is reserved for the lowest of the low points I experience in my life (such as during my foundation year at my first University…) Although, I definitely do experience the odd emotional breakdown every now and then!

I think if I were on any level above a 7, I’d definitely be a lot more expressive than I am now, although I do relate a LOT with level 5, and I think a level 5 is basically me on a good day!

A level 7 resonates with me most because it is a state where chaos leads to one disallowing themselves from basically doing anything that they enjoy, leads to anger toward oneself, leads to depression and isolation… It’s just basically a sort of reactionary state to being in a bad situation.

My bad situation? Well, I’m just not doing great at Uni and am just generally really not very happy with my life and how it’s going at all. It could be worse, but it certainly could be quite a bit better.

So, I want to blossom.

What is it to blossom?

Apparently, according to the Google search result for “define blossom”, it means to “mature or develop in a promising or healthy way.” Synonyms are develop, grow, mature, progress, evolve, burst forth, come to fruition, flourish, thrive, get on well, prosper, succeed, be successful, make headway, bloom, burgeon and go great guns… Antonyms are fade and fail.

Basically, I’m pretty bored and fed up of being a level 7. I mean, it’s okay, but there is a lot more out there for me to experience and I know that’s the person I want to be.

I know I probably seem to be taking the Enneagram too literally, or seem obsessive, or maybe it seems like I’m just using this as another procrastination tactic.

It isn’t that I’m taking the Enneagram literally, rather that it has made me feel quite validated and I definitely resonate with this typology system better than the MBTI (it took 4 tests before I got the same result twice for MBTI, and only 2 for Enneagram).

I’m not obsessive about the Enneagram itself – rather about the prospect of being happy, healthy and successful.

I’m not using this to procrastinate, this is something I need to do so that I will find being productive easier and feel less need to procrastinate altogether.

So, I’m really excited about this. I’m excited about working on me. I work on me a lot to be fair, but in a much less direct way than I intend to now do. This should be priority – type 4’s who are on the extreme end of level 9 are LIKELY to commit suicide! I mean, what’s more important than preventing that? I need to climb this development ladder and FAST.

I’m scared of shifting my focus – scared that my future will somehow fall apart, scared that it will lead to me being unproductive, scared that it won’t work, scared that it will be a waste of time, scared that it is the wrong decision, scared that this will just lead me into an even deeper depression, scared that it might go right and I might actually end up being happy through doing this… That’s the scariest thought of all! It means letting go of who I am, who I have been, and allowing myself to live the life I’ve always wanted. That’s scary when you feel like you’re not good enough to live that life.

So, to start my blossoming, I’m going to get myself some routine going. I’ve heard nothing but good things about fours having a good routine to get them stuck into the reality of daily life. I’m not going to go nuts with a routine, but I’ll just give myself the structure that I think I actually need to be happiest.

I also really need to stay on top of my studies. I NEED to stay grounded in the reality that I’ve created for myself, but without TRAPPING myself! I need to be studying, hard, and doing the work I set for myself and meeting those expectations every single day. I need to be kind to myself and give myself realistic expectations and allow myself time to just be free, but sticking to those expectations is essential to me being happy and loving myself.

I need to begin taking care of myself and making me feel good about myself. I need to take my long Lush baths, do my hair and makeup, use my perfumes, take care in what clothes and jewellery I wear, taking photos of myself and being proud of who I am and of how I represent myself with how I look.

I NEED TO BE FEARLESS AND MAKE TIME TO DO THE THINGS THAT I ENJOY! I need to allow myself to READ my books, to write my blog posts, to edit my photos, to paint my pictures, to learn my instruments, to sing my songs, TO CREATE. I NEED TO MAKE TIME EVERYDAY TO BE CREATIVE! How else am I going to express myself? I NEED THIS. I think this will absolutely bring me the most joy in my life. I need this so, so much.

I’m going to leave it there, because I think that amount of focus is the right amount to allow me to thrive.

This is, of course, before the fact – so I will do my best to update ya’ll on my progress at a later time to say how it’s all going.

Thanks for reading,

Storm