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UNI: YEAR 2

I have had a realisation.

If I were to walk into a mahoosive, gorgeous, packed Poundland – full of stunning stationary, my brain would tell me “No Storm, no. This isn’t the best time or moment in your life for you to purchase any of this stuff. Maybe you will need this stuff at a different stage of your life, but not now.”

But brain, you’re wrong.

When you really think about it, what better time, place, moment in my life could I possibly need stationary more than when in the midst of me studying for a degree in Astrophysics…? If I’m to one day work at an office job? No, I am CERTAIN that these days students use far more stationary than one working in an office job does in a day. Then perhaps it’s more suitable for when I was younger and in compulsory education – or in college? No. University = more difficult = more notes = more work = more studying = more stationary.

I just don’t know why my brain always seems to talk me out of treating myself to certain nice things – even when there will LITERALLY be no better time than now to do so.

This goes for a lot of things when it comes to Uni.

Like, when I went to Fresher’s Fair last year and grabbed all the leaflets and put my name down for almost everything I possibly could, only to go home and my brain to tell me “Meh, if you can’t be bothered to do this stuff now then you can just do it at another stage in your life.”

No, brain.

What better time is there for me to go to socials, join societies, join sporting clubs and go to events than during my first degree at University? After University – when I am holding down a full time job and perhaps have children to take care of? Maybe a better time was in the past and was when I was at school – before I was independent and could choose exactly what I wanted to do with my time?

No.

There literally will not be a better time to do any of those things than whilst studying on this degree.

Again, this goes for a lot of things when it comes to Uni and quite frankly, when it comes to life.

For some bizarre reason, I tend to convince myself out of making changes in my life, even when they are entirely appropriate and simple things to do – like buying a new pen.

I begin my second year at University on the 18th September, and you know what? This year is ACTUALLY going to be different! I’ll remember this realisation and will just allow myself to live my best second-year-of-my-degree life.

– Storm

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Growing Up

Growing up… Becoming more mature… These phrases always leave me with a subtle sense of dread lingering in the back of my mind.

I’ve never liked the idea of being sensible, grown up, mature for my age or anything else. I love the idealistic image of me being young, crazy, wild, full of energy and still being the young version of myself at heart.

But, you know what? Being mature doesn’t have to be a bad thing. I think that as long as one doesn’t allow their fun, idealistic self to become too sensible and realistic, as long as one doesn’t allow their young, spirited self to die and fade away, then I think being wise and mature is a brilliant thing. It allows for an easier life – one where individuals are able to provide for their own wants and needs independently and with little-to-no mental anguish.

I wouldn’t want to be less mature than I am, that’s for certain. Any sense of maturity and wisdom I have is something I prize when it comes to sharing my ideas in conversation. It’s a part of me that helps me to be kind and open-minded, to think logically and objectively in tricky or tense situations. With any less maturity than what I already have, I think I’d be a lot less happy.

In fact, I think I’m not quite mature enough. I do despise that word though – mature. It conjures up the image of an unhappy old woman, boxed in by her own thoughts of what’s considered to be sensible, normal, conventional. And THAT’S not somebody I ever intend on being!

But… I wouldn’t mind my partner knowing that, should he feel tired after work, he can rely on me to be happy to cook a healthy, tasty, fast dinner for the both of us.

I wouldn’t mind for Richard to feel at ease with the knowledge that my financial health isn’t dependent on him working at a good job – that I can financially support myself and even him if he were ever to want a break from working.

I wouldn’t mind Richard not having to worry about keeping a close eye on my mental health, not having to help me keep myself physically healthy, and not having to make sure I’m on top of my Uni work.

I wouldn’t mind finding it easy to take out the recycling, to clean and tidy the flat, and to achieve some general chores (like making important phone calls,) all by myself.

I wouldn’t mind not having to feel guilty and stupid after saying something hurtful to someone I love, and for my partner to trust that his emotional wellbeing, happiness, dreams and freedom are 100% safe in my hands.

I wouldn’t mind being less scared of the world, and to be able to just get on with doing things by myself.

I wouldn’t mind my partner feeling that our roles are equal – that neither of us are a burden in any way, shape or form to one another, that we are both strong, healthy, happy and complete individuals.

I wouldn’t mind being able to make my ideas a reality, without having all this doubt and anxiety holding me back.

I have made it my mission to have achieved my desired level of maturity by around a years time!

I never want to be boring. I always want to be a cute, strange, quirky, unique and adventurous person who’s always unapologetically me. I just want to be a more strong, confident, skilled, fearless, dependable and reliable version of that person.

Basically, I want to be a cute princess and a badass superhero.

Becoming more mature, grown up, intelligent and wise does NOT mean you have lose anything positive that your young self possesses. It doesn’t have to mean that at all. It means retaining your youthful spirit whilst honing some of your weaker life skills, until those skills are strong and complete.

If being mature means to be cute, strong, strange, confident, skilled, quirky, fearless, unique, dependable and reliable, then it’s something I want to be.

– Storm

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100 Followers :)

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Hey everyone!

I’ve just come to quickly say that I’ve reached 100 followers! My current follower count is 104, although, the very first follow is by myself, so I”d count it as being 103 followers 🙂

Not including myself as one of my followers, I reached 100 followers on 27th September 2017. I WOULD have blogged about it on the day, but I was so extremely busy with induction week at University, and have since just been generally busy with University.

Thank you to each and every one of you for deciding to give me a follow! I’m glad you enjoy reading my posts.

– Storm

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Completing My Weight Loss Journey!

15 lbs

Hey guys!

So, as some of you know, I have been trying to lose weight! This started on the 20th December 2016, and my mission was to go from an “overweight” BMI to the most ideal BMI (21.75.) For me (a 163cm girl,) that meant going from 142.8lbs to 127.8lbs – which I have just achieved! 🙂 I didn’t exactly achieve this weight loss quickly, but it’s finished now which is all that matters (and in time for my trip to Mallorca!) That’s a total weight loss of 15lbs!


Now I know, I know. BMI isn’t the most accurate way to measure one’s health, is more of a guideline, and that studies have shown that an overweight BMI is actually healthier etc. My goal was simply to be the healthiest I could be according to ONE method of measuring one’s health, and to purely follow their official methods of measuring health. I would find it impossible to work on maintaining an ideal weight as well as work on building up muscle for example, so I decided to become healthy one step at a time and to just focus on my weight first. I just used the BMI healthy weight calculator on the NHS site!

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I feel a LOT better after losing this weight, so it definitely has proven a helpful thing to do! I feel smaller, and like my body fits me better. I feel more comfortable and more confident, and am not self conscious anymore if my partner wants to pick me up! Now that I’m done I’m going to do my best to not eat more or less than I need to, so that I can maintain this weight for as long as possible.

I can proudly say that I am healthy according to that BMI calculator, and if anyone (including myself) ever tries to put me down about my weight, well, I shouldn’t listen to them because being healthy is most important!

– Storm

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Bucket List!

  1. Work in an animal shelter of some kind.
  2. Try every single vegan mainline Lush product.
  3. Obtain a Bachelor Degree (at least!) in Astrophysics.
  4. Take the first step and get my first tattoo, and to keep getting tattoos until I am fully content.
  5. Experience travelling the world through backpacking.
  6. Visit EVERY COUNTRY in the world in general.
  7. Get married and have a family.
  8. Learn programming.
  9. Be more active on social media (start an Instagram account, start a YouTube channel, Twitter etc.)
  10. Go to a doctor and begin receiving help for my anxiety and any other mental health problems.
  11. Live in Australia.
  12. Expand my plant collection greatly and have an animal family!
  13. Obtain the healthiest weight for my height according to BMI.
  14. Build a healthy amount of muscle tone.
  15. Be physically fit and exercise regularly.
  16. Face my fears and swim with sharks!
  17. Teach.
  18. Go skydiving.
  19. Learn to play as many instruments as I can.
  20. Learn to speak as many languages as I can.
  21. Experience having an income of £60,000, even if only temporarily!
  22. Obtain a PhD.
  23. Get perfect teeth.
  24. Get all the piercings I want to get.
  25. Have all my family together, under the same roof for Christmas.
  26. Learn how to dance.
  27. Be alive to hold my grandchildren.
  28. Own my own home.
  29. Work abroad.
  30. Volunteer abroad.
  31. Get into a daily routine (hair care, skincare etc) and STICK to it!
  32. Go to a professional photo-shoot and get pictures taken with my partner.
  33. Go to a professional photo shoot and get pictures taken of myself.

I can’t think of anything else I’d like to add, so for now that’s it! I just did this for fun and it isn’t a list I’m going to hyper-focus on achieving. I already give myself yearly goals to achieve by each birthday, which is enough goals to work on as it is!

Do you have a lifetime bucket list? Have you made a bucket list blog post? If so, I’d love for you to link it down below so I can give it a read, and if not, why not write one yourself? 🙂

– Storm

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Weight Diary 9!

 


Weight Diary Day 9:

Starting weight: 142.8 lbs

Current weight today in morning: 124.2 lbs

Goal weights: 129.8 lbs, 128.8 lbs, 127.8 lbs, 126.8 lbs, 125.8 lbs, 124.8 lbs, 123.8 lbs,
122.8 lbs, 122.4 lbs.

Why I weigh this much: I haven’t had my lunch yet and am a bit thirsty, so I should probably weigh a bit more than I do! I have also been unwell, which could be causing some extra weight loss. I have been staying hydrated in general though – I have already had 1.2 litres of water so far today, and had my breakfast! I have definitely been keeping hydrated in general for the past 4 days or so, and have been eating a healthy amount of food consistently! So excited that I’m getting close to my weight goal!

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Birthday Goals!

THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG POST. 

Just had to get that out the way. If you don’t like reading, well… you shouldn’t be on a blogging site in the first place to be honest! If you aren’t in the mood for reading then that’s cool, but this post isn’t for you at this moment of time 😉

My posts are already always really long because well, I write them mostly for myself, and I enjoy typing I guess! This one is going to be EXTRA long though – you’ve been warned!!!

Okay, so on my 22nd Birthday I began setting myself goals of anything and everything (pretty much) that I wanted to achieve during the following year. I was pretty upset about getting older, so giving myself some goals, and seeing what things I wanted to save for later in my life at the same time, made me feel younger, motivated and excited for the following year as well as… I don’t know… comfortable with my age I suppose. I am not at terms with my aging process.

Getting older means I get to achieve new things and experience exciting things in my life for a year longer. Getting older means my life gets to move forward and grow, so really, getting older makes me happy now if anything! I definitely have a new appreciation for my aging process – not that I’d wish to be any older, but I wouldn’t wish to be any younger either. I’m happy just the way things are going 🙂

Anyways, so I was pretty rough on myself and set myself I think 29 goals! Bloody hell Storm, was you trying to kill yourself?!

These goals have been, for the most part, what I’ve been at least TRYING to base my actions on for the past year 🙂

I will write what they were here, and we can see how I did at them 😉


  1. Get your first tattoo.
  2. Get yourself 2 additional piercings to your septum piercing.
  3. Cut off all of that nasty dyed hair.
  4. Start experimenting with temporary hair dyes.
  5. Start curling your hair regularly.
  6. Have one of each type of Lush product.
  7. Get a goddamn job!
  8. Make a budget/money plan.
  9. Start saving up money.
  10. Lose enough weight so that I’m at the healthiest, safest weight for my height.
  11. Start exercising a healthy amount regularly.
  12. Be more strict and mindful of what I’m eating.
  13. Find a new dentist.
  14. Begin tidying up regularly.
  15. Use Lush regularly and for everything that I can.
  16. Drink a healthy amount of water regularly.
  17. Stay with Richard another year!
  18. Make some new friends.
  19. Buy a plant and actually take care of it and keep it alive.
  20. Give (and hopefully receive) pre-engagement ring.
  21. Learn all Mathematics and Physics A level material!
  22. Take all my exams.
  23. Complete application to Uni.
  24. Teach myself academic subjects that I’m not being taught, in my free time.
  25. Register and begin studying on the 1st year of my degree.
  26. Travel to 2 new places with my partner.
  27. Move out into appropriate housing for Uni.
  28. Begin learning an instrument.
  29. Start spending time on some hobbies!

Okay guys, I know that it’s a lot – TRUST me. I’m the one that tried to achieve all them things!!!

I will try and get through how each of these goals went briefly, but this could take a while..! Any in red are ones I did not achieve by my 23rd birthday and green ones are ones I did 🙂


  1. I never got my first tattoo. I would have done if I had the funds to do so, but I didn’t. I also want my first tattoo to be to do with my partner, so it needs a lot of thought to put into it! I think I’m going to get this tattoo VERY soon though, as a birthday gift to myself using my savings 🙂
  2. Okay, so the piercings goal. I had pierced my septum myself earlier that year, and was so chuffed with it that I just really wanted to get some more holes in my body. I planned later in the year to get myself a forward helix piercing and a navel piercing. I bought all the piercing equipment for them and gave it a shot. I successfully made a hole in my ear, but the positioning was off, so I had to take it out. It was pretty though! I also attempted to pierce my navel on 2 separate occasions – both times I fainted! It wasn’t super painful, I’m not even sure why I fainted. After the same thing happened with the second attempt I knew it wasn’t a fluke, and know that this is one I can only get if I go to a professional. I still want these piercings and hopefully will get them sometime soon – first I want to re-pierce my septum straight though 😉
  3. Cut off all that nasty dyed hair? I’m amazed at this one, but I actually did it. It’s all gone! I have virgin hair for the first time in over 10 years! Hurrah! I’m so proud of myself and it feels even healthier than I could have imagined. I’ve been out of conditioner since… god knows how long… It has been around 6 months I think, and my hair is still always really soft and lovely!
  4. Okay, I bought some super temporary hair dye. It’s actually chalk spray for your hair. I’ve haven’t used it yet, but I’ll try to remember to for an event or something. It’s a light purple colour and I think it will look really nice sprayed on space buns 🙂
  5. I curled my hair once using hair rollers, and that’s about it. Using bendy hair rollers is the only way I seem able to achieve the type of curl that I like, but it is a very time consuming process and time is one thing I often don’t have. I think once it becomes routine, it will come much easier to me 🙂
  6. Haha, a Lush goal… gosh. That’s when you know someone has gone Lush-mad, when even their goals are based on Lush! I do not own one of each type of Lush product unfortunately – I mostly haven’t delved into the hair care products. Again, I’ve been pretty strapped for cash, but it is still a wish of mine to review every vegan Lush product… One day Storm, one day… !
  7. A job? I STILL HAVE NEVER HAD A CONVENTIONAL JOB IN MY LIFE! That is to say that I have worked freelance jobs, but never had a sort of normal paying job. I try, I guess not hard enough. Being a student is a busy life, trust me. I still obviously intend to get myself a job ASAP though!
  8. A budget/ money plan is one thing I do have in place. It has only been in place since I began receiving my student loan, but it is entirely necessary. If I don’t follow a strict budget plan there is no way I could afford to live! My partner made it for me on a spreadsheet using lots of little formulas, so whenever my income changes, so does the ratio of rent I pay, the amount I’m putting toward savings, my spending money etc. It’s really handy but very difficult to follow! I need a job guys!
  9. Yep, along with the budget plan comes saving up money, something which I am currently attempting to do! I’m not sure I’m doing GREAT at it because my income is crap, but I definitely am saving!

  10. Losing weight. Okay, this is one I have attempted MANY times throughout the past year. It was one of the most important goals to me and no matter how hard I tried, I still failed. At the present, I don’t own any scales, and I find it difficult to lose weight when I don’t know what my weight is. It is something I’m going to continue working on for sure though 🙂

  11. Exercising is another one I’ve not succeeded at, but is still something I’d really like to sort out.

  12. Be more strict and mindful of what I’m eating? Hmm, well… I have definitely tried. I am not doing perfectly – I still drink fizzy drinks on occasion and crisps, and my partner really enjoys packaged food so I still have quite a bit of that. I do think I am doing a lot better than I was though, and I definitely have been trying to make an effort. I’m going to say I failed this one too, because I wanted to have banned unhealthy foods really, but I definitely still eat it on a weekly basis.

  13. Find a new dentist – okay so I moved recently and have found what seems to be the best dentist in the area. I’m going to sign up ASAP 🙂 I’m going to say I failed this one too because although I found the dentist, I haven’t registered yet… I know, I’m pretty tough on myself, I’m a perfectionist!

  14. Tidying up regularly? Nope!

  15. Use Lush regularly for everything I can? There are still a lot of different sorts of products I haven’t even tried yet, like hair and hand masks for example, so I didn’t really succeed at this. I do, however, use the Lush products that I do own for everything I can. For example, I own a Lush cleanser and it is the only cleanser I use. I only use Lush shower gels and shampoo etc. So… I’m going to say this is a success? I don’t have any good routines to using my products, but they are the only ones I use so…!

  16. I had been drinking a brilliant amount of water up until recently. I think as it gets colder my body begins to reject plain cold water. It just makes me so cold! I’ll give it another go though…

  17. Stay with my partner? That I have pretty much done. I am still with him today, so that’s all good 🙂

  18. Make some new friends. Okay well um… I don’t know whether I have or have not honestly. I have met people on my course who I get on with, and they are definitely people that I like, but how close are we really? Would they all come to a party I arrange if I invited them? I live sort of far from the uni, so I don’t think any of them would bother to be honest! I probably wouldn’t either to be fair, so… I don’t know… I definitely have new people I like in my life but I’m not sure that they are really at the true friends level yet. So I’m going to say this is a fail! Let’s hope that changes soon though 🙂

  19. Take care of a plant. Okay, so a bought a gorgeous Kalanchoe geranium plant last November, and I love it to bits. It is still alive although I probably do not tend to it as much as I should. I’m going to say this  was a success, which is fantastic! I’ve always been rubbish at being responsible for another life – plants always die on me and I have never felt like I was as good of a pet owner as I wanted to be, so taking care of a plant is a great first step 🙂

  20. Pre-engagement rings.For those of you who have not heard of them before, they are rings that you give to your partner that resemble the intent and promise to engage them at some point in the future. Some people think these are for kids or that they are pointless, but it depends on your perspective. From the perspective of wanting to be very serious and mature about the relationship, pre-engagement rings feel like a good stepping stone to getting engaged. It is never good to rush into a relationship, and is much wiser to take time to allow it to progress steadily and sturdily. Me and my partner are young and still learning, we want to make sure we are good enough versions of ourselves for our eachother before making massive promises. We are taking it slow and enjoying every stage of the relationship – there’s no rush and taking it slow leaves so much more to be excited for in the future! I gave my partner one for our anniversary earlier this year, and he gave me one on my birthday! A success, yay!

  21. Okay so I failed at this one for sure. I didn’t finish the material for either Physics or Mathematics A level – hence why I am now on an extended degree!

  22. Nope, didn’t take all my exams. I couldn’t book my Physics ones because the practicals were too expensive, and I only took 2/6 of the Mathematics exams because they were just causing me far too much stress because of having not learnt the material enough! I did study a lot – I was self teaching myself 2 full AS levels and A levels in Mathematics and Phsyics in approximately 7 months. Not an easy task!

  23. I completely my application to Uni. Yay!

  24. Self teach myself academics in my free time. I haven’t been doing this unfortunately!

  25. I have indeed registered at my university and have begun my degree course. Hurrah!

  26. Me and my partner, since Rome, traveled to Paris in France, Glasgow in Scotland and Kas in Turkey. So definitely a success and such an exciting one – I must blog about these travels!

  27. We also both moved into our new home together, and have been living here for exactly one full month since. It is incredible to have a home together and to have the freedom to be in charge of decorating, what food is in the cupboard etc. It’s absolutely amazing and achieving this seemed so unlikely at the time, but it has really happened and I am so grateful for it. I am so much happier because of this move, and although it is far distance-wise from my university, travelling there takes approximately 47 minutes. Those minutes include a 17 minute walk to the train station, an 18 minute train ride and a 12 minute walk from the station to the college. The train is very fast so most of the journey is actually just walking to and from the station, which is fine!

  28. I failed at beginning to learn an instrument – too little money to buy one!

  29. I haven’t really begun spending time on hobbies, which sucks. I do things I enjoy, like writing in this blog of mine. I haven’t consciously set time aside for creative hobbies though, like reading or painting or joining a dance class. Soon though!


    I make that a total of 11/29 goals achieved during the past year. Maybe that isn’t great, but it is something! It’s amazing looking back and seeing how much progress you have made. I much prefer birthday goals than new years resolutions. To me, new years resolutions don’t even make sense. Goals shouldn’t be based on some random date. Goals are personal and in my opinion, should be based on the individual’s personal growth – making birthdays the perfect date!

    I’ve enjoyed having goals. It has been stressful as hell, I definitely set myself too many. I’m going to do the same this year and set myself some goals. I didn’t set any on my actual birthday, so I’m at a few days disadvantage this year 😉 I’m definitely going to go easier on myself, and male sure I hack out some of those goals I didn’t achieve this year!


    I’d recommend setting goals for oneself fully. It has overall been an extremely positive experience, and I don’t think I could have another birthday without setting some new goals for myself now!

    Now I’m off to set myself some new goals to achieve over the following year.

    Seeya! – Storm x