My initial year to get onto an Astrophysics ended yesterday.
If I did well enough in my exams that I took earlier this week, my Astrophysics degree starts on 29th September, according to the University site. The 29th September is a Friday – so I can only imagine that this being the starting date of the course means that this is an induction day of some sort – or that the course ACTUALLY begins on the 2nd October, but they want to make sure all the students are at the University and are ready in time. I’m guessing the former.
That’s 137 days of Summer.
Counting today as the first day, and Thursday 28th September as the last day, I literally have 137 full days of Summer.
I haven’t arranged or scheduled to do anything this Summer – a job or a holiday booked. Not saying I won’t do those things. Maybe I will. Maybe I won’t.
Anyone who has ever been a student knows that it can be difficult to prioritise anything else in their lives while their course is running. I moved into my new flat last September, and haven’t even had the time to redecorate, or to go through our packing boxes and unpack our things. I haven’t even signed up with the local dentist or doctors yet!
Because of this, I wanted to leave my Summer open. For it to be a period of time where upon asking myself the question “Do I have the time to do X activity…?,” The answer will ALWAYS be YES, rather than the other way around! Finally, I have the time to invest in all the activities I have neglected over the past 8 months. That includes important things like getting a job too! I intended to get myself job in September last year, but haven’t been able to find the time to even write a damn CV!
Finally, I’m free.
Free to do whatever the hell I want.
I’ve never had a Summer this long in 5 years…
Summer time is the perfect time to get things done. The weather is warm, the sun it out and there is plenty of free time to do all those little things that you’ve been nagging yourself to do. There are so many things that I personally would like to sort out during the holidays!
One thing that has been on my mind a lot recently is my health. That’s not to say that I’m in a bad way, my health just needs a little maintenance! I am super unfit and get tired just walking up a flight of stairs, and I keep noticing new wobbly bits on me that weren’t there before. I would like to lose ~7lbs of weight, to begin eating healthier and I’d like to start going swimming for a few hours every week to help myself become fitter. I believe that a healthy body makes a healthy mind, so I’m hoping that the healthier eating and exercise will help with keeping me cheerful and with alleviating stress too!
I’d like to sort out moving out soon too – and I need to find a college for me to begin attending this year with the courses that I want to take. I’d like to take physics and mathematics as intensive A levels, so that I can work hard to get better at physics before heading back to university.
I am also going to find myself a job so that I can support myself over the course of the next year. I’ve quite liked working from home doing freelance jobs in the past, so I will probably try that first.
Last but not least, I’m going to be driven through several European countries in the space of around a week which will be really exciting! I love travelling. 🙂 I’m not 100% sure which countries we will be driving through yet but it will be at least 6 different countries!
So, put as simply as possible, I am leaving University.
Don’t get me wrong – I still love the University, the course and the area Brighton itself. Despite all of this, being at University has been pretty bad for me.
I don’t feel as though I had enough background knowledge of Physics to succeed on the course for one thing. My anxiety levels were also only increasing with time, to the point where I would honestly describe it as very disabling. My attendance and submission rates became low, I began having to leave in the middle of classes and studying became very difficult to do. There were other problems too, suffice it to say that I was having a fairly bad time at university.
Fairly recently I realised that some things are more important than playing ‘catch up’ and passing the foundation year, and so I left.
I’m going to allow myself more time to study physics before entering university, by going back to college to study A levels this year. I don’t want to be pushing myself to barely pass each year of university – I want to enjoy studying Physics and to be amazing at it, and to do that I require more time to become confident with the basics first.
It may take more time, but I think sometimes you have to take a step back in order to take two steps forward.
I am happy and excited about this decision, and I feel like I have grown as a person to have been able to make it – even if others don’t quite understand. It definitely feels like a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders – I was even calm enough to let myself play a computer game for the first time in over a year today!
So, I’m still on my Christmas break and I still haven’t begun studying.
Wow, that was a rubbish opening line. Okay, this blog post is going to be a little bit more serious than my other blog posts that I’ve written so far. Today I’m really not feeling in a very positive mood. I’ve still got a bunch of studying to get done over a short amount of time and I feel like I’ve just been wasting too much time during my break so far. I’ve loved starting my blog so it isn’t that – I’ve just spent far too much time watching random Youtube videos…
I do get anxiety quite badly so studying is actually quite a task for me, but it’s something I’m just going to have to get over because studying is the only way that I can progress in my mission to become an Astronomer.
Me and my boyfriend went to the cinema to watch the movie ‘Interstellar’ yesterday. It really was motivational for me to watch an exciting, interesting movie about space! Space is so incredible… It’s gotten to the point where I don’t even think that I could be happy unless I am studying something space related.
But yeah, to get to the point where I eventually want to be in life, my first tiny step is to go ahead and make sure I’ve learned what I’ve covered so far in my degree, so that’t exactly what I’m gunna go and do. I’ll write a post soon with updates on how my studying is going (y).