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Blossoming As A Type 4.

Hey guys!

So, I recently discovered that using Enneagram typology, I am a 4w5. I’ve already learnt a lot about this type and after learning about the different levels of healthiness of my Enneagram type, I decided to write a blog post on blossoming as a type 4 as soon as I could.

I believe I’m at level 7 on the four’s levels of development scale.

I think if I were on any level below a 7, I would basically feel much worse than I do now (although I do resonate a lot with level 8 too). In fact, I definitely feel everything written that a level 8 feels, apart from I don’t feel that I am closed off to receiving help – which I think is the biggest distinction between a level 7 and a level 8 in my opinion. In fact, I absolutely love being helped and actively ask for help often, and although sometimes it is difficult to receive it, I’m always happy and grateful once I have. Definitely not a level 9 at the moment though – I think that level is reserved for the lowest of the low points I experience in my life (such as during my foundation year at my first University…) Although, I definitely do experience the odd emotional breakdown every now and then!

I think if I were on any level above a 7, I’d definitely be a lot more expressive than I am now, although I do relate a LOT with level 5, and I think a level 5 is basically me on a good day!

A level 7 resonates with me most because it is a state where chaos leads to one disallowing themselves from basically doing anything that they enjoy, leads to anger toward oneself, leads to depression and isolation… It’s just basically a sort of reactionary state to being in a bad situation.

My bad situation? Well, I’m just not doing great at Uni and am just generally really not very happy with my life and how it’s going at all. It could be worse, but it certainly could be quite a bit better.

So, I want to blossom.

What is it to blossom?

Apparently, according to the Google search result for “define blossom”, it means to “mature or develop in a promising or healthy way.” Synonyms are develop, grow, mature, progress, evolve, burst forth, come to fruition, flourish, thrive, get on well, prosper, succeed, be successful, make headway, bloom, burgeon and go great guns… Antonyms are fade and fail.

Basically, I’m pretty bored and fed up of being a level 7. I mean, it’s okay, but there is a lot more out there for me to experience and I know that’s the person I want to be.

I know I probably seem to be taking the Enneagram too literally, or seem obsessive, or maybe it seems like I’m just using this as another procrastination tactic.

It isn’t that I’m taking the Enneagram literally, rather that it has made me feel quite validated and I definitely resonate with this typology system better than the MBTI (it took 4 tests before I got the same result twice for MBTI, and only 2 for Enneagram).

I’m not obsessive about the Enneagram itself – rather about the prospect of being happy, healthy and successful.

I’m not using this to procrastinate, this is something I need to do so that I will find being productive easier and feel less need to procrastinate altogether.

So, I’m really excited about this. I’m excited about working on me. I work on me a lot to be fair, but in a much less direct way than I intend to now do. This should be priority – type 4’s who are on the extreme end of level 9 are LIKELY to commit suicide! I mean, what’s more important than preventing that? I need to climb this development ladder and FAST.

I’m scared of shifting my focus – scared that my future will somehow fall apart, scared that it will lead to me being unproductive, scared that it won’t work, scared that it will be a waste of time, scared that it is the wrong decision, scared that this will just lead me into an even deeper depression, scared that it might go right and I might actually end up being happy through doing this… That’s the scariest thought of all! It means letting go of who I am, who I have been, and allowing myself to live the life I’ve always wanted. That’s scary when you feel like you’re not good enough to live that life.

So, to start my blossoming, I’m going to get myself some routine going. I’ve heard nothing but good things about fours having a good routine to get them stuck into the reality of daily life. I’m not going to go nuts with a routine, but I’ll just give myself the structure that I think I actually need to be happiest.

I also really need to stay on top of my studies. I NEED to stay grounded in the reality that I’ve created for myself, but without TRAPPING myself! I need to be studying, hard, and doing the work I set for myself and meeting those expectations every single day. I need to be kind to myself and give myself realistic expectations and allow myself time to just be free, but sticking to those expectations is essential to me being happy and loving myself.

I need to begin taking care of myself and making me feel good about myself. I need to take my long Lush baths, do my hair and makeup, use my perfumes, take care in what clothes and jewellery I wear, taking photos of myself and being proud of who I am and of how I represent myself with how I look.

I NEED TO BE FEARLESS AND MAKE TIME TO DO THE THINGS THAT I ENJOY! I need to allow myself to READ my books, to write my blog posts, to edit my photos, to paint my pictures, to learn my instruments, to sing my songs, TO CREATE. I NEED TO MAKE TIME EVERYDAY TO BE CREATIVE! How else am I going to express myself? I NEED THIS. I think this will absolutely bring me the most joy in my life. I need this so, so much.

I’m going to leave it there, because I think that amount of focus is the right amount to allow me to thrive.

This is, of course, before the fact – so I will do my best to update ya’ll on my progress at a later time to say how it’s all going.

Thanks for reading,

Storm

 

 

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My Enneagram Type

Hey guys!

So, my older sister has been interested in the Enneagram recently, so I’ve decided to try taking some tests to see what my Enneagram type is at the present.

I have taken personality typing tests before – but the only up-to-date result I have is that I am an INFP from the MBTI personality testing system.

So, here it goes!

I begin by searching “Enneagram test” into google.co.uk…

I click on the first result to take my first Enneagram test! I answer any and all questions as honestly and PRESENTLY as I possibly can. What I mean by this is that I answer the questions as though the scenario in question was just about to occur in a moment, rather than depending on memories of experiences to answer the questions. This gives a result that is accurate and applicable to who I am today, versus a result based on either my image of who I am or on who I have been in the past 🙂

The first google result is eclecticenergies.com/enneagram/test.

It contains two online Enneagram tests, so I will take both 🙂

Okay, so after taking the first test, the results believe me to be a type 4 – more specifically a 4w5.

The second test believes me to be a type 4 too, also with a 4w5 wing, of the self-preservation variant.

Considering that both tests use completely different methods (the first had a page of 9 questions, each representing an Enneagram type, with 3 possible answers (yes, no or partly) for each – there were 14 pages altogether and after a while the questions would lessen as some types would be eliminated (by the 14th page I had only 5 questions per page left) and the second had 50-something pairs of statements, which a scale of 7 options to which you rate the pair of statements), I think it is safe to say that my result for the Enneagram is fairly conclusively a 4w5. I think it would be very unlikely for anything but this result to be true given the amount of possibilities that were available to me for both tests, and getting the exact same result using two different systems.

So, that’s it! I’m a 4w5. An INFP 4w5. Awesome.

It’s always fun to gather more information about yourself 🙂

I will do more personality typing tests so that I have more results besides simply the INFP result and the 4w5 result. I’ll also get my partner to do the second test to see how similar a result he gets to me (we both got INFP-T on the MBTI test, so I’m very curious to see what he gets for this test!) I honestly don’t do tests like these often though because they take me a very long time to do and take a lot of energy and concentration out of me, so it isn’t likely that I’ll do any more tests very very soon. For now I’m pretty content with the personality typing results that I do have.

Below is a mosaic of images from my test taking, followed by the two images of my results 🙂

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– Storm

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The Beauty Tag

Hey guyyys! 😀

I hope you’re all having a great weekend! I was technically tagged by Lise over at Lushtivity, although not directly as she tagged anybody who wanted to give this questionnaire a go. She’s awesome. Go check her out.



1. Do you remember your first makeup item?

When I was probably around 6 years old, my mother took me and my two older siblings to a beauty shop and let us all pick one nail polish each – orange and yellow were my favourite colours so I of course chose the sparkly orange nail polish.

2. Describe your perfect mascara. Have you found one that fits your specifications?
My perfect mascara would make my eyelashes look super natural – like my own eyelashes only slightly more enhanced and beautiful. I love a natural look! I’d also want the mascara to be ethical and made from natural ingredients – similar to Lush’s ‘Eyes Right’ mascara (the one that comes in the long tube from Oxford Street.) It would be super easy to apply and wouldn’t get all over my eyelids. As I said, Lush’s ‘Eyes Right’ mascara is the best one I have tried so far, but it is going to take some practice to learn how to apply it without getting product all over my face!

3. What kind of coverage do you prefer from a foundation?
I like a natural medium kinda coverage from my foundation. One where after I use it my skin still looks like my own, but just with less flaws. Again, I prefer makeup that just naturally and beautifully enhances what I already have!

4. Favourite high end brand?
The most expensive makeup I’ve tried is from Lush, so I guess Lush?

5. What cosmetics brands have you always wanted to try but still haven’t?
Honestly, none. I’m only interested in Lush products now haha!

6. Favourite drugstore brand?
I actually really enjoy just using MUA products for when I want some more affordable makeup. I bought a MUA eyeshadow palette recently and have been using one of the powders on my eyebrows every single day since. It works amazingly and was super affordable!

7. Do you wear false lashes?
Nope, never have. I’d like to try them just to see what they look like – just for fun. I’d never be into wearing them frequently though. Don’t like the idea of sticking random bits of plastic to my body too much.

8. Is there any kind of makeup you can’t leave the house without?
I can leave the house without any makeup, so long as I’m not going to be seeing many people at all on that day. I can’t leave to go and have a normal day at Uni without foundation, setting powder and eyebrow powder. I’d also be fairly miserable if I don’t have my lip tint on too. The rest, meh. I usually just do my foundation before I leave and pack the rest of those items in my Uni bag – I do most of my makeup whilst commuting on the train!

9. What is your most cherished beauty product?
Probably my ‘Light Yellow Colour Supplement’ from Lush at the moment. It’s basically a foundation. Really not sure what I would do without it!

10. How often do you shop for makeup? Do you like to pick up an item here and there, or get lots of goodies at once?
I never really shop for makeup apart from when I have run out of something that I use daily. If I do need to stock up on makeup though, I do prefer to make any purchases I need to make in one go.

11. Do you have a “beauty budget” or do you spend freely?
I don’t have a beauty budget but I am extremely frugal. So technically I spend my money on beauty products freely as I don’t really keep a close track of it, but it’s still rare that I’ll buy any beauty products for myself.

12. Do you utilize coupons, reward cards and sales when you shop for cosmetics?
No. I just get what I need when I need it!

13. What type of product do you buy the most of?
I get through toothpaste quite quickly… And also shampoo. I strangely have loads of shower gels though, even though I get through them super slowly. I’m going to go with shampoo.

14. Is there a brand you absolutely can’t stand?
Um, not really. Any brands that test on animals or are absurdly overpriced. I’ve also always had a negative perspective on super popular, hyped up brands like Mac.

15. Do you avoid certain ingredients in cosmetics, like parabens or sulfates?
I’m a vegan so I do make sure any beauty products I use are also vegan. I also like natural products – the more natural the ingredients the better! I’m honestly not that fussy at the minute though – again, I tend to stick to trying out Lush products and for the most part they seem to do more good than harm thus far!

16. Do you have a favourite place to shop for makeup?
Again, Lush… If I can’t afford Lush at the time though, I’ll go take a look in Superdrug!

17. Do you like trying new skin care products or do you keep a certain routine?
I love trying new skin care products. Once I’ve found something that I really love though, I’ll not stray from using it (like my ‘Veganese Conditioner’ and my ‘Eau Roma Water Toner’ from Lush.)

18. Favourite bath and body brand?
I’m so tediously predictable. LUSH!

19. If you could only buy from one brand, which brand would you choose?
LUSH!

20. What brand do you think has the best packaging?
Lush… Only because they use recycled plastic to make their pots and have a really good recycling scheme. I also think their packaging looks quite funky.

21. Which celebrity always has great makeup?
I have no idea. I’m not really a fan of celebrities. I’ll say Rihanna just because she mostly seems to go for a fairly natural look that really enhances her natural beauty, which is what I like my makeup to look like.

22. Do you belong to any online makeup communities?
No.

23. 5 Favourite beauty gurus:
Meh, none. I nominate myself to be a beauty guru. There, now I can vote for myself!

24. Do you like multi-functional products like lip and cheek stains?
If that’s their primary purpose and they have been made specifically to be one just as much as the other, then sure. That sounds pretty neat. But, I tend to find that products advertised as being multi-functional usually have one primary function, and then a secondary, not-so-good function. So I guess I like them if they are ACTUALLY multi-functional!

25. Are you clumsy at putting on makeup?
Yes. I’m terrible at putting on liquid eyeliner – although I’d absolutely love to get good at it. I’m also pretty bad at applying mascara around 75% of the time – there is the odd time that it comes out pretty darn good. I always accidentally smudge my lip tint over my lip line too, and it takes a while to perfect the outline. So, long story short, yes.

26. Do you use makeup base/primer for the eyes?
I use just a regular facial primer all over my face – including around my eyes.

27. How many hair products do you use on a typical day?
On a typical day I use shampoo and conditioner. That’s it. I used to use a hair moisturiser daily too but I used it all up 😦

28. What do you apply first, concealer or foundation?
I just use a foundation!

29. Would you ever consider taking makeup classes?
Probably not. I really enjoy learning my own way around applying makeup, and how to apply it in such a way that works best with my unique skin, facial features, tones etc.

30. What do you love about makeup?
I love that it gives a person confidence in how they look, where they might feel completely unconfident otherwise. I love that it provides every single person in the world the opportunity to look the most conventionally beautiful that they possibly can. I love that makeup enhances an individual’s unique natural beauty, and really makes a person shine from the inside out. I love that it gives everybody the opportunity to look “on fleek” and like all of them beautiful models and celebrities they see. It gives us power to change our physical appearance and how we are perceived by others pretty damn easily. It’s pretty magical stuff.

I tag:
Whoever wants to do this questionnaire!

 


– Storm

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About myself.

Hello! 🙂

This post is going to be a little bit of information about myself, so that anyone reading my posts can know a bit about the person writing them!

Let me think… What might readers want to know about me? Well, first I will show you what my face looks like!

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Hmm… I really can’t think of anything to say!

I am 21 years old.

I LOVE STAR TREK!

I am supposed to wear glasses but I haven’t for a while… Looking to buy some #5226 cat-eye  Ray-Bans!

Let’s think… What would I want to know about someone who’s blog I read…

My real name is actually Storm – it isn’t a nickname! My mother just really loved the name when I was born. 🙂

I grew up in London, England. I now live at my University most of the time which is in Brighton, England.

I love cute clothes! Anything that is a purple colour, light pink colour, has bows on it, is collared or anything that has an animal/flower print on it… I will want to own!

During the day I enjoy shopping, watching fashion and beauty videos on youtube, listening to music, studying (even though it makes me super stressed!), being out of the house and spending time with nice people. 🙂

At the moment, my favourite subject is Astronomy, but I pretty much enjoy most subjects! I find geography, climatology, prehistoric history, geology, palaeontology, biology and many other academic subjects interesting. I also find interest in dance, music, art, languages, travel… So yes, pretty much everything!

When I’ve finished my degree, my ideal job would be to work as a researcher in the field of Astrobiology, or to be a teacher/lecturer in the field. I want to get myself a PhD, so I have around another 10 years ahead of me!

I sort of think of myself as having two sides – there’s the more nerdy side of me that loves Star Trek, Astrobiology, Dungeons and Dragons based games (and RPG’s in general) and K-pop! Then there’s the more girly side of me who loves fashion, makeup, music, art, animals and dance.

I get stressed stupidly easily and am pretty much constantly incredibly stressed about one thing or another.

I have an older brother, an older sister, a younger brother and a younger sister. I also have an adorable niece!

I consider myself a very open-minded person and different cultures and different parts of the world really fascinate me. I would love to learn lots of different languages and to travel the world in my lifetime. 🙂

I am 5 ft 4.

My favourite colour is an inky, deep magenta. It’s such a beautiful colour!

My favourite animal is the ocelot. I am generally a cat person and the ocelot is just extra cute.

I have never purposely eaten meat! I was brought up as a vegetarian and have been mostly vegan for about 10 years.

My favourite thing to eat is probably just vegetable couscous, because it’s really easy to eat and is simple yet tasty. 🙂

My favourite thing to drink is… Probably strawberry and banana smoothie. It’s just super healthy, tasty, has a nice rich texture and I just love it!

I think that’s enough about me now. Thank you for reading my blog! Bye!

– Storm